30-12-2015, 04:15 PM
(29-12-2015, 07:41 PM)Pinnochia Wrote:(29-12-2015, 03:34 PM)jamiemason Wrote:The point of no return- for me its when your feelings as well as your physicality have gone so far the other way, that you'll never feel comfortable in a male role again. lol in essence its like a flip flop,Now for some of us the secret life is the female reality your working on,,, i guess the point of no return would be when dressing as a man becomes your secret life. That no-mans land there in the very middle-( no pun intended)(29-12-2015, 01:50 AM)Pinnochia Wrote:(28-12-2015, 03:13 PM)jamiemason Wrote:lol,,,yea, But its intimidating too,, ,, Its like you have to seriously ask yourself,,How close am i to the point of no return,, heady stuff.(27-12-2015, 06:47 PM)Pinnochia Wrote: A little jiggle can be a beautiful thing,,, i enjoy that too,lol
Yes is it a nice feeling, but also it's like - 'I have boobs now,' which is exciting!
Yes it can be intimidating is some regards. This morning I was measuring my areola’s, which are over 1.5 inches now – yayy!! Just short of 1.75 inches.
I thought to myself how feminine they looked, and for the first time I got the ‘wtf’ feeling. I had never had those thoughts before. It wasn’t enough to deter anything. PM has been amazing for me from both the mental and physical aspect, more so than breast growth. It’s validated my body with how I feel at times. I will always be ‘male’ because I am genetically, but I am certainly less ‘male’ since I’ve started NBE if that makes sense.. lol
What exactly is the ‘point of no return?’
Pinnochia, oh.. lol
Yes, that makes sense.. My story is complex or similar, I suppose; or different, depending on your own journey.
For me, I always felt and knew I was different. I know, many people say or refer to that, but with me, it was always apparent before even puberty. I’m not a ‘transitioning’ person – I was born in the right body, I just have female traits and desires too. But it’s clear I have two sides of my life and have my entire life which is both male and female attributes.
My femme side has been hidden most of my life, out of shame and embarrassment, especially when it came to sex and attraction. My femme side was lived out, starting at 19 years old, mostly in places that aren’t really suitable for forums like this. It was through that that I knew and discovered this natural side of me.
Honesty, and I think I can be that here with everyone, NBE was a second alternative. Mostly I got into PM and other herbs to control my sex drive, which has always been high. I did lots of research prior too. That was my primary reasoning. I knew that breast development would be a side effect, but it was one that mattered really not very much to me.
That being said, I have gynecomasica, though undiagnosed, I started with ‘moobs’ as many did here. The smirks and teasing from others when I was shirtless about my ‘man boobs’ were countless.
Personally, the further I got into NBE, the more I enjoyed the natural feelings of being on PM. The calmness, less aggressiveness, and a softer way of thinking. It was sort of my brain catching up with my body.
The ‘point of no return’ as others speak of, will be just another balancing act for me. The point of no return has been there all my life it seems..
I have learned to balance both sides me, and finally, after 40 something years, I feel good – and I like my boobs!!