(29-06-2016, 04:27 PM)Sofia Lauren Bunny Wrote: Oh the tangled webs we weave! So lets see first started with the intent of just growing breast. Was almost 99.7% sure I had no intention of transitioning. At the time was wearing colorful bikini briefs (male), had a few body suits, a few bralettes, a few stockings, stuff I would just wear on occasion because I enjoyed the way they felt. In the beginning I was pretty adamant about not transitioning, but was not completely closed off to the idea as I have found in time things can change.
I had a few issues with my emotions flaring up as I was getting used to the hormonal changes in my body. That mostly settled, finally. Except for when I go on break, towards the end of the week I am a mess. Then little things started to change. I started buying women's underwear, bras, camisoles, slips etc. Still, I was pretty sure I had no intentions of transitioning, just really enjoyed the softness and comfort of those items.
Outside of family, one of my biggest hang ups was I didn't think I would be able to look like a woman. Well that finally got the best of me, and had a makeover done. I figured I would finally settle that once and for all and finally confirm that it would be impossible for me to look like a woman. Unfortunately I was wrong, I wasn't too terrible looking. Possibly one of the more happier moments in my life.
So now that just leaves family to contend with. Right now I teeter totter back and forth as to whether or not transitioning is for me. Some days I entertain the idea, and other days I think perhaps not.
The point of all this? The longer I remain on my regiment the more I come to accept myself, and find myself content with the overall changes. Things just feel right the closer to femininity I get. I am doing things I didn't think I would do, like now shaving my legs, shaving off all my facial hair, etc.
So the question I keep asking myself, was this something that was buried deep inside of me and is barely coming to the surface? More and more I find suppressed memories coming out that shed some light here and there. Or is it my regiment that is driving me towards this new destination. Perhaps it is my regiment that is unlocking the doors that were locked long ago. I really don't know. I do know that my mind has shifted from where it was when I first started.
(29-06-2016, 06:03 PM)julieTG Wrote: oh great
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Julie