22-09-2016, 05:08 PM
Be more careful of what you DON’T wish for ?
Many of us on here are warned about how growing breasts and wishing to be a woman can suddenly turn into reality,
So so many of us here are now on synthetics and some have gone the whole srs route in a remarkably short period of time,
I got thinking today, my wish has always been NOT TO BE A WOMAN , but I really can see now how the temptation, the inner struggle and to how so many can succumb,
Every day I ask myself the question, do I want to be a woman and the answer is no,
BUT I flipped it round today and said to myself ok
What if I did not live the fortunate life I do i.e. with
Good work, amazing family , i.e. single and no ties , etc
The same question gave a solid different answer , yes ? “what the fuck” ?
Where did that come from, ? and that answer was given to myself when I was calm, chilled, and happy today, it would have been even more positive if I was suffering the the heat and turmoil on some days,
Thankfully I love being a Man and all it entails and part of my intrinsic make up of myself is tied to my values and family, but I really can see how difficult this can be for say young , and single people of any age,
Reading many books over the last few weeks have made me realise how tough a path we lead, and after having read countless examples of people who have fully transitioned with far less severity of feelings than I have had, gulp.
Also many ,many cross dressers or people who just thought they were cross dressers suddenly transitioned when wife left or died, and there feelings were not that strong according to accounts.
So perhaps the inertia is not always from within,
So I answer myself if I had a major life changing even , death, divorce, job less, would I transition and just cut the struggle, yes could do ?
Crikey that’s a game changer,
What worries me a little is even some of the “rocks” on this board are moving to transition, yet thankfully some are not. It really , really is a Pandora box gamble,
The point of this post is simple, will power many times cannot stop transition once the forbidden fruit has been sampled, will power will not stop transition sometimes even if no breast growth or herbs or synthetics are taken if your TS she will come out, it’s just a matter and length of time, not all ts transition of course, but many live a life or a lie of madness.
So when I read , just starting pm and want a little breasts to fill my cups, as I am only a cross dresser, yes that was said by many booked into Thailand.
For me to even write this post , a seismic shift has occurred i.e. to even consider the possibility of transition under any circumstances, but I feel good today, and very collected and calm, after all this is what the herbs are meant to do, calm the and ease the sine waves.
The game changer is that I answered the thought with honesty rather than defensive denial.
Julie
Many of us on here are warned about how growing breasts and wishing to be a woman can suddenly turn into reality,
So so many of us here are now on synthetics and some have gone the whole srs route in a remarkably short period of time,
I got thinking today, my wish has always been NOT TO BE A WOMAN , but I really can see now how the temptation, the inner struggle and to how so many can succumb,
Every day I ask myself the question, do I want to be a woman and the answer is no,
BUT I flipped it round today and said to myself ok
What if I did not live the fortunate life I do i.e. with
Good work, amazing family , i.e. single and no ties , etc
The same question gave a solid different answer , yes ? “what the fuck” ?
Where did that come from, ? and that answer was given to myself when I was calm, chilled, and happy today, it would have been even more positive if I was suffering the the heat and turmoil on some days,
Thankfully I love being a Man and all it entails and part of my intrinsic make up of myself is tied to my values and family, but I really can see how difficult this can be for say young , and single people of any age,
Reading many books over the last few weeks have made me realise how tough a path we lead, and after having read countless examples of people who have fully transitioned with far less severity of feelings than I have had, gulp.
Also many ,many cross dressers or people who just thought they were cross dressers suddenly transitioned when wife left or died, and there feelings were not that strong according to accounts.
So perhaps the inertia is not always from within,
So I answer myself if I had a major life changing even , death, divorce, job less, would I transition and just cut the struggle, yes could do ?
Crikey that’s a game changer,
What worries me a little is even some of the “rocks” on this board are moving to transition, yet thankfully some are not. It really , really is a Pandora box gamble,
The point of this post is simple, will power many times cannot stop transition once the forbidden fruit has been sampled, will power will not stop transition sometimes even if no breast growth or herbs or synthetics are taken if your TS she will come out, it’s just a matter and length of time, not all ts transition of course, but many live a life or a lie of madness.
So when I read , just starting pm and want a little breasts to fill my cups, as I am only a cross dresser, yes that was said by many booked into Thailand.
For me to even write this post , a seismic shift has occurred i.e. to even consider the possibility of transition under any circumstances, but I feel good today, and very collected and calm, after all this is what the herbs are meant to do, calm the and ease the sine waves.
The game changer is that I answered the thought with honesty rather than defensive denial.
Julie
