As most of you have seen some of my earlier musings, I will not bore you other than to say I thought my condition was "Late On-Set". But, after having 2 doctor's, and a therapist, tell me I probably have been since before birth. I guess I really have no choice but to accept that fact.
But, life like this really sucks... Or in our English Cousin's parlance..... It's bloody hell of a life.
Yes, I know there are tons of lists, thoughts from many more learned people than myself that extol the virtue of Transgenderism. And, I suppose that is really good to some degree from us who might or has that subset of attributes. But, lets face it. It's not really like having a difference in eye color, shape of body.... , rather obese or rail thin. It's more intrinsic and base than that. I wish I could pass my duality off as JUST choosing one color of shirt over another. But it's not. It's, in a way, having to defy social "norms" and the way most of us was brought up. It's more than being a Catholic one day, then waking up to be a Mormon or an Orthodox Jew or believing in the Koran. (Although that change is soul and social changing by itself)
Lets face it, without having men and women co mingling, we as a civilization would NOT be here. It's pure biology, if nothing else. So, where does that leave most of us?? In a pickle, to use an American colloquialism.
Too bad we don't have a world that has one basic form of dress.... Like say the Scots or some of the other peoples that are on this blue world. Kimono's would be a nice touch, or the Sarongs? Although, I know we would still be "rebels" by glitzing it up, or wearing blings all over it! ! We would have to figure out how to stick our proverbial middle finger at society.... Would that NOT put us back here at our current state of unhappiness???
I consider myself to be a chameleon by what I choose to wear. Much to the consternation and misgivings of my wife of 42yrs. But we have a tacit set of rules we both try to abide by. If I keep it out of our public life, she will keep her opinions to herself. I just wished we could get to a place where she felt comfortable in being a willing fashion advisor when I am in a femme shopping frame of mind.
But, one could cross dress or be a chameleon with out wanting some of the physical characteristics. I mean, you can buy padded panties, breast forms and some sort of a waist cincher. Right?? No, this is NOT a fetish to me. It's more of who I am, or what I want to become. It's simply is NOT a fetish. And that is where the problem lays.
Then there is the associated problems with being in both worlds like me. MONEY! ! You pay a premium for anything you wear that can be uni-sex in nature. Like non cutsie blouses that don't have flowers, kitty kats or such plastered all over them. Just nice pastels or even solid colors that can accommodate boobs is either one or two sizes larger than what a person likes to wear in a man's shirt, or you have to put up with princess seems in blouses. Both morally and monetarily expensive. Morally because who among us like to wear clothing that a 200 lb man would have to wear, even when we may only be 150 lbs just to hide boobs. Money wise cause a man can buy a real nice shirt for say $35 and a comparable blouse would be $45 - $50 or more. Why???? I don't have a clue.
Then there are pants/slacks! ! For those of us starting to get a feminine shape you can no longer comfortably wear mens dress slacks. By the time you have to buy a pair that maybe 2 or 3 sizes bigger to fit over your now feminine bum. By the time you cinch your belt so they don't fall down and expose your panties... You now look like a clown without white pancake makeup on. And on the money side of it, it's still pretty true. Women's slacks are not built for stain resistance, or long wear. I have worn out 2 pairs of jeans made for women while NOT having to throw out a single still close fitting men's jeans. On top of that! ! They're either the same price or more expensive than men's when you consider long wear, etc.
Then there's time spent and money on transforming ourselves..... Have you woke up and realize how much time and money we all have wasted trying to get a more feminine shape??? Rather it's fake boobs and padded panties or being a purest by trying to transform our real bodies????
What a Bloody Life ! ! !
Anyways.... That's just a few of my thoughts. I am sure some of your Gurls has other ones that you would like to share. Please do!
But, life like this really sucks... Or in our English Cousin's parlance..... It's bloody hell of a life.
Yes, I know there are tons of lists, thoughts from many more learned people than myself that extol the virtue of Transgenderism. And, I suppose that is really good to some degree from us who might or has that subset of attributes. But, lets face it. It's not really like having a difference in eye color, shape of body.... , rather obese or rail thin. It's more intrinsic and base than that. I wish I could pass my duality off as JUST choosing one color of shirt over another. But it's not. It's, in a way, having to defy social "norms" and the way most of us was brought up. It's more than being a Catholic one day, then waking up to be a Mormon or an Orthodox Jew or believing in the Koran. (Although that change is soul and social changing by itself)
Lets face it, without having men and women co mingling, we as a civilization would NOT be here. It's pure biology, if nothing else. So, where does that leave most of us?? In a pickle, to use an American colloquialism.
Too bad we don't have a world that has one basic form of dress.... Like say the Scots or some of the other peoples that are on this blue world. Kimono's would be a nice touch, or the Sarongs? Although, I know we would still be "rebels" by glitzing it up, or wearing blings all over it! ! We would have to figure out how to stick our proverbial middle finger at society.... Would that NOT put us back here at our current state of unhappiness???
I consider myself to be a chameleon by what I choose to wear. Much to the consternation and misgivings of my wife of 42yrs. But we have a tacit set of rules we both try to abide by. If I keep it out of our public life, she will keep her opinions to herself. I just wished we could get to a place where she felt comfortable in being a willing fashion advisor when I am in a femme shopping frame of mind.
But, one could cross dress or be a chameleon with out wanting some of the physical characteristics. I mean, you can buy padded panties, breast forms and some sort of a waist cincher. Right?? No, this is NOT a fetish to me. It's more of who I am, or what I want to become. It's simply is NOT a fetish. And that is where the problem lays.
Then there is the associated problems with being in both worlds like me. MONEY! ! You pay a premium for anything you wear that can be uni-sex in nature. Like non cutsie blouses that don't have flowers, kitty kats or such plastered all over them. Just nice pastels or even solid colors that can accommodate boobs is either one or two sizes larger than what a person likes to wear in a man's shirt, or you have to put up with princess seems in blouses. Both morally and monetarily expensive. Morally because who among us like to wear clothing that a 200 lb man would have to wear, even when we may only be 150 lbs just to hide boobs. Money wise cause a man can buy a real nice shirt for say $35 and a comparable blouse would be $45 - $50 or more. Why???? I don't have a clue.
Then there are pants/slacks! ! For those of us starting to get a feminine shape you can no longer comfortably wear mens dress slacks. By the time you have to buy a pair that maybe 2 or 3 sizes bigger to fit over your now feminine bum. By the time you cinch your belt so they don't fall down and expose your panties... You now look like a clown without white pancake makeup on. And on the money side of it, it's still pretty true. Women's slacks are not built for stain resistance, or long wear. I have worn out 2 pairs of jeans made for women while NOT having to throw out a single still close fitting men's jeans. On top of that! ! They're either the same price or more expensive than men's when you consider long wear, etc.
Then there's time spent and money on transforming ourselves..... Have you woke up and realize how much time and money we all have wasted trying to get a more feminine shape??? Rather it's fake boobs and padded panties or being a purest by trying to transform our real bodies????
What a Bloody Life ! ! !
Anyways.... That's just a few of my thoughts. I am sure some of your Gurls has other ones that you would like to share. Please do!
