(23-01-2018, 06:16 PM)Jennipher Wrote: So, back to original question...
Katie, IMHO I don’t think anything is wrong with you. I’ve dressed en femme since a very early age, and when I first began NBE with herbs and then PM, nothing changed. I still chose feminine clothing at home and underneath when I went out, unless it was a social event where I was comfortable presenting as female. Even tho’ I’m thin, at 6’3” I can marginally pass at best! The longer I was on feminizing herbs the more I wanted to present... my previous gender fluidity tipped more and more to female. As I’ve described earlier, taking the next step was not an option for me. So, I’ve learned to accept and appreciate my fluidity, even tho’ it is very frustrating at times. For instance, when I’m at a social event I tend to gravitate to a group of women chatting, which is misconstrued in all kinds of ways. To me, I’m just hanging out with the girls!
BTW, cheers on getting your nails done! A dear GG friend of mine arranged an after hours makeover for me several years ago, and it was the most wonderful experience!
Jenn
I can sort of relate to that when I was about 19 and first diagnosed as transsexual, but the thing that stopped me from transitioning was that freezing sperm wasn`t an option open to me back then. where it gets a bit different was that I so desperately wanted to have children! i`v cried for Hours and hours at a time because i so badly wanted to be pregnant with my own child, but knew it would never happen, it was pure Hell for me the torment of wanting my own kids but being unable to do anything about it, wanting so badly to carry my own baby caused so much anguish for me I`v lost days at a time just crying for the children i never would have (as if they existed somewhere outside of our mortal world and I`d let them down).
Of course my brain being for all intents and purposes Female, it never really occured to me to have kids via an alternative route, the "traditional" way that a male bodied person would.
Eventually I figured it out, and as disgusting as I felt at the thought of having sex, i decided that was the only Realistic route for me to have my own children, so I decided not to transition.
soon after I threw myself into Religion and heavy drinking, and after a few years the whole idea of me being trans was Ridiculous!
fast forward 30 years and a near completel transtion later, here I am, a girl called Katherine with 2 beautiful children!
yes I still get quite tearful when my girlfriends start talking about pregnancy, but then I also Smile quite widely when they discuss periods, so it`s not All bad. xx
