26-01-2020, 05:21 AM
I am going to start this off by saying that I have lurked here and on other similar sites for over a decade, but is my first ever post. I think it is time for me to fully admit this, not only to myself but to other people, to cement in my mind that this is something I am taking seriously and want to achieve.
I have other thoughts, but I think this is enough for my first post.
I have been facinated by breasts for as long as I can remember, going back to my grade school days. I love everything about them, but most of all, the way breasts filling the cups of a bra looks to my eyes.
Over the years, this facination has taken hold of me and evolved to an over whelming desire to be able to look down and see breasts of my own filling a bra.
I dont have a good explanation for it. I genuinely have little desire to transition or present as female in public or private. I have dabled in CD, but have limited it to bras and panties. I do have a few pairs of womens jeans because they do seem to fit me a touch better, but that is the extent of it.
I have dabbled in herbal (Natures Day) many times in the last 20 years with little to show for it besides an empty wallet. Tried a bit of unofficial hypnosis, but not enough to be serious. I am currently taking Ainterol PM at 1000mg a day and am seeing results, but I have to keep hitting the pause button because above all, I want/need to retain control of my twig and giggle berries.
I am stuggling to maintain balance and achieve both of my primary goals. I refuse to entertain the thought of implants, natural or nothing.
I have other thoughts, but I think this is enough for my first post.