[Lovebuns69]

It's just fair that I start this off:

I am a 40 years old white guy from London. I am happily married and we have a 2 years old boy. Although I have been crossdressing since I can remember, my wife knows, I would describe myself as the average cisgender manly man. I enjoy my role as father and breadwinner, my monthly night out with friends and colleagues at the pub getting drunk, and my quite active social life which includes taking my son to swim, going to the seaside, poolside parties with my office etc... 
I have always had a thing for "senses and feeling". I love to feel light fabrics, the height of high heels, and since my nipples have always been very sensitive, I wanted to feel what it's like to have breasts behind them (and maybe fill my bras when I crossdress).

I am reaching now a point, after 2 1/2 years toying with PM, where the shape of my chest is showing through my man's t-shirt. I "have boobs", even if noone would call them as such because their shape is not very round and they can pass for chubby moobs. But I think that I am reaching a point when my "moobs" will be too big for how chubby I am. On one side this makes me happy, or I wouldn't be doing NBE, on another side I am scared that my wife, who knows nothing of NBE, will question me. I am planning at least 3 seaside holidays for 2019 and, obviously, that could be a problem too with family and friends.

I am in a bit of a pink fog, I guess. I know I should stop but I keep going back at it. I even bought a number of bras with the intention of start wearing them in my everyday life. I had this thing before, about somehow taking my CD fetish into my normal life, but the appeal is getting stronger now that I would have something to fill the bras with.
I started wearing more when at home, under my t-shirts and jumpers. As I said, my wife doesn't care. But she'd be pissed if she found out about NBE (we somehow jokedjabout the subject of me growing boobs and she didn't like it at all), and what are the chances that precisely a crossdresser is "so unlucky" to spark a massive case of gynecomastia all of a sudden? I wear bras (under 2 layers) even when our kid is around, and since he's young, I hug him continuously and I am sure that he can feel the straps and the cups of the bras. I tell myself that he won't remember, so he won't care. Hopefully.

So far there has never been a problem. Nipple play is a huge part of our lovemaking, so she plays a lot with my breasts without ever raising the subject of them being larger or heavier. She noticed that they are softer (the skin), but she didn't think much of it because I usually shave and moisturize my body anyway.

So, here I am. I guess that I will soon have to take a break but at the same time PM seems addictive and I always want to push ahead a bit more. Until a few months ago I was swimming in my 38C bras but now my "underboob" rests against the bottom of the cup. Something is changing and it's thrilling and scary.

Shirazmn,

I'm really disappointed that this thread didn't get more traction, because I would really like to hear the stories from a lot of guys, especially on the topics of how they started  on this journey, and what they have said to their wives, and what stage they are at and how their lives are now.

For my part, I'm a 68-year-old white male from Texas. I've been married for almost 10 years to my fourth wife, but I wouldn't describe it as happy. I've had some latent crossdressing desires for a long time, but they never really surfaced much until about a year ago, when I got a "brain fart" and just went after it in a big way, Within a week, I was going shopping at the thrift stores dressed in skirt, blouse, panties, and bra stuffed with a 36DD breast form.  But in the year since, I've gone through 3 complete purges, and had some very difficult conversations with my wife, who does NOT accept it all. The conclusion of the discussion was that if I pushed it or persisted in it, it would be "the death of our marriage."

I knew that it was possible for men to take hormones and develop some breasts.  I had read that, while everyone is different, typically, you would top out at about a small B cup. If I was going to develop breasts, I wanted them bigger than that, because I like big breasts! But I also didn't want to do anything overt to cause them.  In another thread, I mentioned an article I stumbled across about a middle-aged guy who grew 38DDD boobs as a result of prescription meds, and I was jealous!

And then I stumbled on this site, and I've been pouring over it every chance I get and trying to absorb everything I can.  I stumbled onto the thread "Binaural Beats" in the Personal Programs section, and, while skeptical, I thought, well, I can give that try and just see what it does, and that's not really doing anything "overt".  If it does work, and the wife asks where those boobs came from, I can say I don't know!

But as has been mentioned on here many times, the whole process of growing boobs has a strong tendency to be addictive.  So I'm not sure I'll be able to leave it there!

At the same time, I'm not 100% convinced I want to go there, even if the wife was not a consideration.  Am I going to go a year or two down this road, develop a pair that can't be hidden, and then decide I really don't want them?  Getting rid of a pair of boobs is not like throwing out a few hundred dollars worth of crossdressing clothes!  It's scary!

I'd love to hear from others where they are on this road.

Did you find a "Binaural Beats" program that worked for you????  I have seen them and want to try them out to see if I can get my breasts to grow. Been using PM for a few years off and on and have had some growth, but need something else too! Thanks!

[debbieTV]

It's just fair that I start this off:

I am a 40 years old white guy from London. I am happily married and we have a 2 years old boy. Although I have been crossdressing since I can remember, my wife knows, I would describe myself as the average cisgender manly man. I enjoy my role as father and breadwinner, my monthly night out with friends and colleagues at the pub getting drunk, and my quite active social life which includes taking my son to swim, going to the seaside, poolside parties with my office etc... 
I have always had a thing for "senses and feeling". I love to feel light fabrics, the height of high heels, and since my nipples have always been very sensitive, I wanted to feel what it's like to have breasts behind them (and maybe fill my bras when I crossdress).

I am reaching now a point, after 2 1/2 years toying with PM, where the shape of my chest is showing through my man's t-shirt. I "have boobs", even if noone would call them as such because their shape is not very round and they can pass for chubby moobs. But I think that I am reaching a point when my "moobs" will be too big for how chubby I am. On one side this makes me happy, or I wouldn't be doing NBE, on another side I am scared that my wife, who knows nothing of NBE, will question me. I am planning at least 3 seaside holidays for 2019 and, obviously, that could be a problem too with family and friends.

I am in a bit of a pink fog, I guess. I know I should stop but I keep going back at it. I even bought a number of bras with the intention of start wearing them in my everyday life. I had this thing before, about somehow taking my CD fetish into my normal life, but the appeal is getting stronger now that I would have something to fill the bras with.
I started wearing more when at home, under my t-shirts and jumpers. As I said, my wife doesn't care. But she'd be pissed if she found out about NBE (we somehow jokedjabout the subject of me growing boobs and she didn't like it at all), and what are the chances that precisely a crossdresser is "so unlucky" to spark a massive case of gynecomastia all of a sudden? I wear bras (under 2 layers) even when our kid is around, and since he's young, I hug him continuously and I am sure that he can feel the straps and the cups of the bras. I tell myself that he won't remember, so he won't care. Hopefully.

So far there has never been a problem. Nipple play is a huge part of our lovemaking, so she plays a lot with my breasts without ever raising the subject of them being larger or heavier. She noticed that they are softer (the skin), but she didn't think much of it because I usually shave and moisturize my body anyway.

So, here I am. I guess that I will soon have to take a break but at the same time PM seems addictive and I always want to push ahead a bit more. Until a few months ago I was swimming in my 38C bras but now my "underboob" rests against the bottom of the cup. Something is changing and it's thrilling and scary.

Shirazmn,

I'm really disappointed that this thread didn't get more traction, because I would really like to hear the stories from a lot of guys, especially on the topics of how they started  on this journey, and what they have said to their wives, and what stage they are at and how their lives are now.

For my part, I'm a 68-year-old white male from Texas. I've been married for almost 10 years to my fourth wife, but I wouldn't describe it as happy. I've had some latent crossdressing desires for a long time, but they never really surfaced much until about a year ago, when I got a "brain fart" and just went after it in a big way, Within a week, I was going shopping at the thrift stores dressed in skirt, blouse, panties, and bra stuffed with a 36DD breast form.  But in the year since, I've gone through 3 complete purges, and had some very difficult conversations with my wife, who does NOT accept it all. The conclusion of the discussion was that if I pushed it or persisted in it, it would be "the death of our marriage."

I knew that it was possible for men to take hormones and develop some breasts.  I had read that, while everyone is different, typically, you would top out at about a small B cup. If I was going to develop breasts, I wanted them bigger than that, because I like big breasts! But I also didn't want to do anything overt to cause them.  In another thread, I mentioned an article I stumbled across about a middle-aged guy who grew 38DDD boobs as a result of prescription meds, and I was jealous!

And then I stumbled on this site, and I've been pouring over it every chance I get and trying to absorb everything I can.  I stumbled onto the thread "Binaural Beats" in the Personal Programs section, and, while skeptical, I thought, well, I can give that try and just see what it does, and that's not really doing anything "overt".  If it does work, and the wife asks where those boobs came from, I can say I don't know!

But as has been mentioned on here many times, the whole process of growing boobs has a strong tendency to be addictive.  So I'm not sure I'll be able to leave it there!

At the same time, I'm not 100% convinced I want to go there, even if the wife was not a consideration.  Am I going to go a year or two down this road, develop a pair that can't be hidden, and then decide I really don't want them?  Getting rid of a pair of boobs is not like throwing out a few hundred dollars worth of crossdressing clothes!  It's scary!

I'd love to hear from others where they are on this road.

Did you find a "Binaural Beats" program that worked for you????  I have seen them and want to try them out to see if I can get my breasts to grow. Been using PM for a few years off and on and have had some growth, but need something else too! Thanks!

this  is  so  similar  to  where  i  am  now  ive  stoped  and  srarted  so  many  times  just  lately  its  crazy  when  i  stop  the  NBE  my  boobs  srink  a  bit  but  are  still  very  much  there  within  a  weeck  of  starting  again  they  seem  to  come  back  very  quickly  and  i  get  scared  becouse  they  get  so  ovious  and  so  hard  to  hide .  im  shure  if  i  stuck  at  it  they  would  grow  very  big  but  even  though  ive  always  cross  dressed  in  my  daily  life  im  just  an  avarage  family  guy  its  driving  me  crazy  at  the  mo  cos  i  cant  make  up  my  mind  .  i  decide  to  stop  but  then  two  weecks  later  im  back  on  it  again  i  realise  im  addicted  to  growing  boobs   i  wish  i  knew  the  way  out  of  this  mess .

[StellaZ]

It's just fair that I start this off:

I am a 40 years old white guy from London. I am happily married and we have a 2 years old boy. Although I have been crossdressing since I can remember, my wife knows, I would describe myself as the average cisgender manly man. I enjoy my role as father and breadwinner, my monthly night out with friends and colleagues at the pub getting drunk, and my quite active social life which includes taking my son to swim, going to the seaside, poolside parties with my office etc... 
I have always had a thing for "senses and feeling". I love to feel light fabrics, the height of high heels, and since my nipples have always been very sensitive, I wanted to feel what it's like to have breasts behind them (and maybe fill my bras when I crossdress).

I am reaching now a point, after 2 1/2 years toying with PM, where the shape of my chest is showing through my man's t-shirt. I "have boobs", even if noone would call them as such because their shape is not very round and they can pass for chubby moobs. But I think that I am reaching a point when my "moobs" will be too big for how chubby I am. On one side this makes me happy, or I wouldn't be doing NBE, on another side I am scared that my wife, who knows nothing of NBE, will question me. I am planning at least 3 seaside holidays for 2019 and, obviously, that could be a problem too with family and friends.

I am in a bit of a pink fog, I guess. I know I should stop but I keep going back at it. I even bought a number of bras with the intention of start wearing them in my everyday life. I had this thing before, about somehow taking my CD fetish into my normal life, but the appeal is getting stronger now that I would have something to fill the bras with.
I started wearing more when at home, under my t-shirts and jumpers. As I said, my wife doesn't care. But she'd be pissed if she found out about NBE (we somehow jokedjabout the subject of me growing boobs and she didn't like it at all), and what are the chances that precisely a crossdresser is "so unlucky" to spark a massive case of gynecomastia all of a sudden? I wear bras (under 2 layers) even when our kid is around, and since he's young, I hug him continuously and I am sure that he can feel the straps and the cups of the bras. I tell myself that he won't remember, so he won't care. Hopefully.

So far there has never been a problem. Nipple play is a huge part of our lovemaking, so she plays a lot with my breasts without ever raising the subject of them being larger or heavier. She noticed that they are softer (the skin), but she didn't think much of it because I usually shave and moisturize my body anyway.

So, here I am. I guess that I will soon have to take a break but at the same time PM seems addictive and I always want to push ahead a bit more. Until a few months ago I was swimming in my 38C bras but now my "underboob" rests against the bottom of the cup. Something is changing and it's thrilling and scary.

Shirazmn,

I'm really disappointed that this thread didn't get more traction, because I would really like to hear the stories from a lot of guys, especially on the topics of how they started  on this journey, and what they have said to their wives, and what stage they are at and how their lives are now.

For my part, I'm a 68-year-old white male from Texas. I've been married for almost 10 years to my fourth wife, but I wouldn't describe it as happy. I've had some latent crossdressing desires for a long time, but they never really surfaced much until about a year ago, when I got a "brain fart" and just went after it in a big way, Within a week, I was going shopping at the thrift stores dressed in skirt, blouse, panties, and bra stuffed with a 36DD breast form.  But in the year since, I've gone through 3 complete purges, and had some very difficult conversations with my wife, who does NOT accept it all. The conclusion of the discussion was that if I pushed it or persisted in it, it would be "the death of our marriage."

I knew that it was possible for men to take hormones and develop some breasts.  I had read that, while everyone is different, typically, you would top out at about a small B cup. If I was going to develop breasts, I wanted them bigger than that, because I like big breasts! But I also didn't want to do anything overt to cause them.  In another thread, I mentioned an article I stumbled across about a middle-aged guy who grew 38DDD boobs as a result of prescription meds, and I was jealous!

And then I stumbled on this site, and I've been pouring over it every chance I get and trying to absorb everything I can.  I stumbled onto the thread "Binaural Beats" in the Personal Programs section, and, while skeptical, I thought, well, I can give that try and just see what it does, and that's not really doing anything "overt".  If it does work, and the wife asks where those boobs came from, I can say I don't know!

But as has been mentioned on here many times, the whole process of growing boobs has a strong tendency to be addictive.  So I'm not sure I'll be able to leave it there!

At the same time, I'm not 100% convinced I want to go there, even if the wife was not a consideration.  Am I going to go a year or two down this road, develop a pair that can't be hidden, and then decide I really don't want them?  Getting rid of a pair of boobs is not like throwing out a few hundred dollars worth of crossdressing clothes!  It's scary!

I'd love to hear from others where they are on this road.

Did you find a "Binaural Beats" program that worked for you????  I have seen them and want to try them out to see if I can get my breasts to grow. Been using PM for a few years off and on and have had some growth, but need something else too! Thanks!

this  is  so  similar  to  where  i  am  now  ive  stoped  and  srarted  so  many  times  just  lately  its  crazy  when  i  stop  the  NBE  my  boobs  srink  a  bit  but  are  still  very  much  there  within  a  weeck  of  starting  again  they  seem  to  come  back  very  quickly  and  i  get  scared  becouse  they  get  so  ovious  and  so  hard  to  hide .  im  shure  if  i  stuck  at  it  they  would  grow  very  big  but  even  though  ive  always  cross  dressed  in  my  daily  life  im  just  an  avarage  family  guy  its  driving  me  crazy  at  the  mo  cos  i  cant  make  up  my  mind  .  i  decide  to  stop  but  then  two  weecks  later  im  back  on  it  again  i  realise  im  addicted  to  growing  boobs   i  wish  i  knew  the  way  out  of  this  mess .

I have a situation somewhat similiar.  I am older (56) and a family man.  2 adult children and a wife.  I discovered sissy porn a few years ago and was immediately hooked.  I travel a lot for work so as soon as I got to my hotel I was in my women's clothing,  sleeping in lingerie and wearing my breast forms. I get so tuned on by it.  I feel its a fetish but the more I move through all of this, the more unsure I am.  I found PM and thought I could feel more feminine and stop after I got some unnoticeable growth and I want to experinece the budding sensation. I'm very glad I found this board for support and guidance.  I just started taking PM but it seems once you get started its very hard to stop.  Stay strong.  If you need to stop I'm sure everyone here will help you through the tough times

[Drew]

It's just fair that I start this off:

I am a 40 years old white guy from London. I am happily married and we have a 2 years old boy. Although I have been crossdressing since I can remember, my wife knows, I would describe myself as the average cisgender manly man. I enjoy my role as father and breadwinner, my monthly night out with friends and colleagues at the pub getting drunk, and my quite active social life which includes taking my son to swim, going to the seaside, poolside parties with my office etc... 
I have always had a thing for "senses and feeling". I love to feel light fabrics, the height of high heels, and since my nipples have always been very sensitive, I wanted to feel what it's like to have breasts behind them (and maybe fill my bras when I crossdress).

I am reaching now a point, after 2 1/2 years toying with PM, where the shape of my chest is showing through my man's t-shirt. I "have boobs", even if noone would call them as such because their shape is not very round and they can pass for chubby moobs. But I think that I am reaching a point when my "moobs" will be too big for how chubby I am. On one side this makes me happy, or I wouldn't be doing NBE, on another side I am scared that my wife, who knows nothing of NBE, will question me. I am planning at least 3 seaside holidays for 2019 and, obviously, that could be a problem too with family and friends.

I am in a bit of a pink fog, I guess. I know I should stop but I keep going back at it. I even bought a number of bras with the intention of start wearing them in my everyday life. I had this thing before, about somehow taking my CD fetish into my normal life, but the appeal is getting stronger now that I would have something to fill the bras with.
I started wearing more when at home, under my t-shirts and jumpers. As I said, my wife doesn't care. But she'd be pissed if she found out about NBE (we somehow jokedjabout the subject of me growing boobs and she didn't like it at all), and what are the chances that precisely a crossdresser is "so unlucky" to spark a massive case of gynecomastia all of a sudden? I wear bras (under 2 layers) even when our kid is around, and since he's young, I hug him continuously and I am sure that he can feel the straps and the cups of the bras. I tell myself that he won't remember, so he won't care. Hopefully.

So far there has never been a problem. Nipple play is a huge part of our lovemaking, so she plays a lot with my breasts without ever raising the subject of them being larger or heavier. She noticed that they are softer (the skin), but she didn't think much of it because I usually shave and moisturize my body anyway.

So, here I am. I guess that I will soon have to take a break but at the same time PM seems addictive and I always want to push ahead a bit more. Until a few months ago I was swimming in my 38C bras but now my "underboob" rests against the bottom of the cup. Something is changing and it's thrilling and scary.

Shirazmn,

I'm really disappointed that this thread didn't get more traction, because I would really like to hear the stories from a lot of guys, especially on the topics of how they started  on this journey, and what they have said to their wives, and what stage they are at and how their lives are now.

For my part, I'm a 68-year-old white male from Texas. I've been married for almost 10 years to my fourth wife, but I wouldn't describe it as happy. I've had some latent crossdressing desires for a long time, but they never really surfaced much until about a year ago, when I got a "brain fart" and just went after it in a big way, Within a week, I was going shopping at the thrift stores dressed in skirt, blouse, panties, and bra stuffed with a 36DD breast form.  But in the year since, I've gone through 3 complete purges, and had some very difficult conversations with my wife, who does NOT accept it all. The conclusion of the discussion was that if I pushed it or persisted in it, it would be "the death of our marriage."

I knew that it was possible for men to take hormones and develop some breasts.  I had read that, while everyone is different, typically, you would top out at about a small B cup. If I was going to develop breasts, I wanted them bigger than that, because I like big breasts! But I also didn't want to do anything overt to cause them.  In another thread, I mentioned an article I stumbled across about a middle-aged guy who grew 38DDD boobs as a result of prescription meds, and I was jealous!

And then I stumbled on this site, and I've been pouring over it every chance I get and trying to absorb everything I can.  I stumbled onto the thread "Binaural Beats" in the Personal Programs section, and, while skeptical, I thought, well, I can give that try and just see what it does, and that's not really doing anything "overt".  If it does work, and the wife asks where those boobs came from, I can say I don't know!

But as has been mentioned on here many times, the whole process of growing boobs has a strong tendency to be addictive.  So I'm not sure I'll be able to leave it there!

At the same time, I'm not 100% convinced I want to go there, even if the wife was not a consideration.  Am I going to go a year or two down this road, develop a pair that can't be hidden, and then decide I really don't want them?  Getting rid of a pair of boobs is not like throwing out a few hundred dollars worth of crossdressing clothes!  It's scary!

I'd love to hear from others where they are on this road.

Did you find a "Binaural Beats" program that worked for you????  I have seen them and want to try them out to see if I can get my breasts to grow. Been using PM for a few years off and on and have had some growth, but need something else too! Thanks!

this  is  so  similar  to  where  i  am  now  ive  stoped  and  srarted  so  many  times  just  lately  its  crazy  when  i  stop  the  NBE  my  boobs  srink  a  bit  but  are  still  very  much  there  within  a  weeck  of  starting  again  they  seem  to  come  back  very  quickly  and  i  get  scared  becouse  they  get  so  ovious  and  so  hard  to  hide .  im  shure  if  i  stuck  at  it  they  would  grow  very  big  but  even  though  ive  always  cross  dressed  in  my  daily  life  im  just  an  avarage  family  guy  its  driving  me  crazy  at  the  mo  cos  i  cant  make  up  my  mind  .  i  decide  to  stop  but  then  two  weecks  later  im  back  on  it  again  i  realise  im  addicted  to  growing  boobs   i  wish  i  knew  the  way  out  of  this  mess .

I have a situation somewhat similiar.  I am older (56) and a family man.  2 adult children and a wife.  I discovered sissy porn a few years ago and was immediately hooked.  I travel a lot for work so as soon as I got to my hotel I was in my women's clothing,  sleeping in lingerie and wearing my breast forms. I get so tuned on by it.  I feel its a fetish but the more I move through all of this, the more unsure I am.  I found PM and thought I could feel more feminine and stop after I got some unnoticeable growth and I want to experinece the budding sensation. I'm very glad I found this board for support and guidance.  I just started taking PM but it seems once you get started its very hard to stop.  Stay strong.  If you need to stop I'm sure everyone here will help you through the tough times

Suspecting you will get scared at results and stop, then only to start again kicking yourself for stopping.
Well is what happened to me, but can't imagine I'm the only one.

[StellaZ]

Shirazmn,

I'm really disappointed that this thread didn't get more traction, because I would really like to hear the stories from a lot of guys, especially on the topics of how they started  on this journey, and what they have said to their wives, and what stage they are at and how their lives are now.

For my part, I'm a 68-year-old white male from Texas. I've been married for almost 10 years to my fourth wife, but I wouldn't describe it as happy. I've had some latent crossdressing desires for a long time, but they never really surfaced much until about a year ago, when I got a "brain fart" and just went after it in a big way, Within a week, I was going shopping at the thrift stores dressed in skirt, blouse, panties, and bra stuffed with a 36DD breast form.  But in the year since, I've gone through 3 complete purges, and had some very difficult conversations with my wife, who does NOT accept it all. The conclusion of the discussion was that if I pushed it or persisted in it, it would be "the death of our marriage."

I knew that it was possible for men to take hormones and develop some breasts.  I had read that, while everyone is different, typically, you would top out at about a small B cup. If I was going to develop breasts, I wanted them bigger than that, because I like big breasts! But I also didn't want to do anything overt to cause them.  In another thread, I mentioned an article I stumbled across about a middle-aged guy who grew 38DDD boobs as a result of prescription meds, and I was jealous!

And then I stumbled on this site, and I've been pouring over it every chance I get and trying to absorb everything I can.  I stumbled onto the thread "Binaural Beats" in the Personal Programs section, and, while skeptical, I thought, well, I can give that try and just see what it does, and that's not really doing anything "overt".  If it does work, and the wife asks where those boobs came from, I can say I don't know!

But as has been mentioned on here many times, the whole process of growing boobs has a strong tendency to be addictive.  So I'm not sure I'll be able to leave it there!

At the same time, I'm not 100% convinced I want to go there, even if the wife was not a consideration.  Am I going to go a year or two down this road, develop a pair that can't be hidden, and then decide I really don't want them?  Getting rid of a pair of boobs is not like throwing out a few hundred dollars worth of crossdressing clothes!  It's scary!

I'd love to hear from others where they are on this road.

Did you find a "Binaural Beats" program that worked for you????  I have seen them and want to try them out to see if I can get my breasts to grow. Been using PM for a few years off and on and have had some growth, but need something else too! Thanks!

this  is  so  similar  to  where  i  am  now  ive  stoped  and  srarted  so  many  times  just  lately  its  crazy  when  i  stop  the  NBE  my  boobs  srink  a  bit  but  are  still  very  much  there  within  a  weeck  of  starting  again  they  seem  to  come  back  very  quickly  and  i  get  scared  becouse  they  get  so  ovious  and  so  hard  to  hide .  im  shure  if  i  stuck  at  it  they  would  grow  very  big  but  even  though  ive  always  cross  dressed  in  my  daily  life  im  just  an  avarage  family  guy  its  driving  me  crazy  at  the  mo  cos  i  cant  make  up  my  mind  .  i  decide  to  stop  but  then  two  weecks  later  im  back  on  it  again  i  realise  im  addicted  to  growing  boobs   i  wish  i  knew  the  way  out  of  this  mess .

I have a situation somewhat similiar.  I am older (56) and a family man.  2 adult children and a wife.  I discovered sissy porn a few years ago and was immediately hooked.  I travel a lot for work so as soon as I got to my hotel I was in my women's clothing,  sleeping in lingerie and wearing my breast forms. I get so tuned on by it.  I feel its a fetish but the more I move through all of this, the more unsure I am.  I found PM and thought I could feel more feminine and stop after I got some unnoticeable growth and I want to experinece the budding sensation. I'm very glad I found this board for support and guidance.  I just started taking PM but it seems once you get started its very hard to stop.  Stay strong.  If you need to stop I'm sure everyone here will help you through the tough times

Suspecting you will get scared at results and stop, then only to start again kicking yourself for stopping.
Well is what happened to me, but can't imagine I'm the only one.

That seems to be the pattern I have found on here in general.  Its very interesting, I do get nervous already and I am only a few days into but the thrill and excitement of it all keeps me moving forward.  I suspect there maybe a line that is crossed and once you are over it, it becomes the point of no return, so to speak.  I could be wrong as I don't have the experience others have.  I guess we all find out in time

[VergeOfDiscovery]

Did you find a "Binaural Beats" program that worked for you????  I have seen them and want to try them out to see if I can get my breasts to grow. Been using PM for a few years off and on and have had some growth, but need something else too! Thanks!

this  is  so  similar  to  where  i  am  now  ive  stoped  and  srarted  so  many  times  just  lately  its  crazy  when  i  stop  the  NBE  my  boobs  srink  a  bit  but  are  still  very  much  there  within  a  weeck  of  starting  again  they  seem  to  come  back  very  quickly  and  i  get  scared  becouse  they  get  so  ovious  and  so  hard  to  hide .  im  shure  if  i  stuck  at  it  they  would  grow  very  big  but  even  though  ive  always  cross  dressed  in  my  daily  life  im  just  an  avarage  family  guy  its  driving  me  crazy  at  the  mo  cos  i  cant  make  up  my  mind  .  i  decide  to  stop  but  then  two  weecks  later  im  back  on  it  again  i  realise  im  addicted  to  growing  boobs   i  wish  i  knew  the  way  out  of  this  mess .

I have a situation somewhat similiar.  I am older (56) and a family man.  2 adult children and a wife.  I discovered sissy porn a few years ago and was immediately hooked.  I travel a lot for work so as soon as I got to my hotel I was in my women's clothing,  sleeping in lingerie and wearing my breast forms. I get so tuned on by it.  I feel its a fetish but the more I move through all of this, the more unsure I am.  I found PM and thought I could feel more feminine and stop after I got some unnoticeable growth and I want to experinece the budding sensation. I'm very glad I found this board for support and guidance.  I just started taking PM but it seems once you get started its very hard to stop.  Stay strong.  If you need to stop I'm sure everyone here will help you through the tough times

Suspecting you will get scared at results and stop, then only to start again kicking yourself for stopping.
Well is what happened to me, but can't imagine I'm the only one.

That seems to be the pattern I have found on here in general.  Its very interesting, I do get nervous already and I am only a few days into but the thrill and excitement of it all keeps me moving forward.  I suspect there maybe a line that is crossed and once you are over it, it becomes the point of no return, so to speak.  I could be wrong as I don't have the experience others have.  I guess we all find out in time

Re: Breasts are the point of no return...

[StellaZ]

this  is  so  similar  to  where  i  am  now  ive  stoped  and  srarted  so  many  times  just  lately  its  crazy  when  i  stop  the  NBE  my  boobs  srink  a  bit  but  are  still  very  much  there  within  a  weeck  of  starting  again  they  seem  to  come  back  very  quickly  and  i  get  scared  becouse  they  get  so  ovious  and  so  hard  to  hide .  im  shure  if  i  stuck  at  it  they  would  grow  very  big  but  even  though  ive  always  cross  dressed  in  my  daily  life  im  just  an  avarage  family  guy  its  driving  me  crazy  at  the  mo  cos  i  cant  make  up  my  mind  .  i  decide  to  stop  but  then  two  weecks  later  im  back  on  it  again  i  realise  im  addicted  to  growing  boobs   i  wish  i  knew  the  way  out  of  this  mess .

I have a situation somewhat similiar.  I am older (56) and a family man.  2 adult children and a wife.  I discovered sissy porn a few years ago and was immediately hooked.  I travel a lot for work so as soon as I got to my hotel I was in my women's clothing,  sleeping in lingerie and wearing my breast forms. I get so tuned on by it.  I feel its a fetish but the more I move through all of this, the more unsure I am.  I found PM and thought I could feel more feminine and stop after I got some unnoticeable growth and I want to experinece the budding sensation. I'm very glad I found this board for support and guidance.  I just started taking PM but it seems once you get started its very hard to stop.  Stay strong.  If you need to stop I'm sure everyone here will help you through the tough times

Suspecting you will get scared at results and stop, then only to start again kicking yourself for stopping.
Well is what happened to me, but can't imagine I'm the only one.

That seems to be the pattern I have found on here in general.  Its very interesting, I do get nervous already and I am only a few days into but the thrill and excitement of it all keeps me moving forward.  I suspect there maybe a line that is crossed and once you are over it, it becomes the point of no return, so to speak.  I could be wrong as I don't have the experience others have.  I guess we all find out in time

Re: Breasts are the point of no return...

Seems like it.  Love the picture by the way.  Again, scary and exciting all at the same time

[spanky (aka Lola)]

I am another person who plays the ping pong game, stopping and starting, on and off, sure and unsure.  Results do seem to cumulate, and there is a wonderful elation that comes from the excitement and sensations of resumption.  Indeed, I think that my motivation in resuming is as much for the mental and sensory effect as for achieving growth.  I miss these aspects soon after stopping, and an awareness sets in that it is only a matter of time until I resume.

The whole question of a "point of no return" is interesting.  Is there really any such thing?  Of course, there may be a point where breasts grow large enough that they cannot be concealed.  I have gone through some mental gymnastics thinking that I just wanted to get right up to that line and then stop.  However, that line keeps moving, or I keep redefining it.  Or I go through periods where I say "screw it, I'm in!"  Which of course is followed by an "Oh f!&**: moment of panic.

Family life is as yet unaffected in any obvious way.  Still love my wife and kids, and they seem to love me.  I sometimes wish my wife were more into my changes, but at least she is tolerant.  I think maybe it is just something that does not compute for her.  I can understand that and try to tame my own desire that she be an active partner in this part of my life.

[StellaZ]

I am another person who plays the ping pong game, stopping and starting, on and off, sure and unsure.  Results do seem to cumulate, and there is a wonderful elation that comes from the excitement and sensations of resumption.  Indeed, I think that my motivation in resuming is as much for the mental and sensory effect as for achieving growth.  I miss these aspects soon after stopping, and an awareness sets in that it is only a matter of time until I resume.

The whole question of a "point of no return" is interesting.  Is there really any such thing?  Of course, there may be a point where breasts grow large enough that they cannot be concealed.  I have gone through some mental gymnastics thinking that I just wanted to get right up to that line and then stop.  However, that line keeps moving, or I keep redefining it.  Or I go through periods where I say "screw it, I'm in!"  Which of course is followed by an "Oh f!&**: moment of panic.

Family life is as yet unaffected in any obvious way.  Still love my wife and kids, and they seem to love me.  I sometimes wish my wife were more into my changes, but at least she is tolerant.  I think maybe it is just something that does not compute for her.  I can understand that and try to tame my own desire that she be an active partner in this part of my life.

Very good point about the line moving.  I can see how that happens,  I guess point of no return can move and adjust as well.  Again,  I am very new to all of this but almost get excited when its time to take my PM.  Its a funny thing.  I get nervous but still want to move on.  I guess the line can move almost everyday

[spanky (aka Lola)]