[Heaven's Night]

Omg, what a day!

For the first time in a while I feel genuinely happy about life. This was the best day I've had for a while and definitely worth a story... I knew things would get soon better after I finish my job and I wasn't wrong. Loading batteries, getting rid of social exhaustion and blossoming spring time sure brought in nice things. The corona madness is starting to ease its grip and places are starting to open up and its time to be alive.

I hadn't had any relationship time with my gf for a while and today we decided to go out. First just to do shopping, me picking up a new batch of pm from the post office and so on. Then as we went we got the idea to grab an ice cream as the weather was so nice and warm. I went out loud and proud, flaunting my body with my new lovely corset below the tanktop, I wanted to go out there feeling so girly and cute. They say confidence makes pretty and it sure seems to do so. I took a conscious decision to really be me without restricting myself and to dress up nicely. Its the time of year, women get rid of all the cold weather clothes and go nuts about looking great, Finnish summer is so short we have to take all the fun out of it we can so why in the heck not.

I didn't overdo anything, no makeup this time, but that corset is magic! And being all confident and smiles... Yea, that does it. No unwanted nasty attention at all, guys kept checking me out and some old drunk guy was even being somewhat flirtatious. Having ice cream wasn't enough so we ended up having few drinks at a bar as they're finally allowed to be open. Lot of people were out and about and I enjoyed every bit of it. It seems that I've gone so far that being bold enough with looks makes me 'invisible' enough.

And then to top it off, a good old friend of mine came for a visit first time in a year, we talked for hours. I told him everything, he must be the most open minded and cool friend I have irl, so awesome. No boundaries on what I could talk with him and I told it all from NBE to transition to relationships to music and so on. He said some unexpected compliments about my looks, he said I'm almost like a different person. Jaw dropping moment when I told him all I got under the shirt and bra is just me, no flaunting with padding.  He complimented my figure and said that I got that feminine glow in me now and that my face is different. So nice to hear someone say those things, someone who I've known for over fifteen years.

I feel happy and euphoric. I think I got the most validation in one day I've ever had so far. This is what makes being trans absolutely fantastic some times. This rocky road is worth every tear. And that feminine glow... Do you see it too?

[Drew]

Omg, what a day!

For the first time in a while I feel genuinely happy about life. This was the best day I've had for a while and definitely worth a story... I knew things would get soon better after I finish my job and I wasn't wrong. Loading batteries, getting rid of social exhaustion and blossoming spring time sure brought in nice things. The corona madness is starting to ease its grip and places are starting to open up and its time to be alive.

I hadn't had any relationship time with my gf for a while and today we decided to go out. First just to do shopping, me picking up a new batch of pm from the post office and so on. Then as we went we got the idea to grab an ice cream as the weather was so nice and warm. I went out loud and proud, flaunting my body with my new lovely corset below the tanktop, I wanted to go out there feeling so girly and cute. They say confidence makes pretty and it sure seems to do so. I took a conscious decision to really be me without restricting myself and to dress up nicely. Its the time of year, women get rid of all the cold weather clothes and go nuts about looking great, Finnish summer is so short we have to take all the fun out of it we can so why in the heck not.

I didn't overdo anything, no makeup this time, but that corset is magic! And being all confident and smiles... Yea, that does it. No unwanted nasty attention at all, guys kept checking me out and some old drunk guy was even being somewhat flirtatious. Having ice cream wasn't enough so we ended up having few drinks at a bar as they're finally allowed to be open. Lot of people were out and about and I enjoyed every bit of it. It seems that I've gone so far that being bold enough with looks makes me 'invisible' enough.

And then to top it off, a good old friend of mine came for a visit first time in a year, we talked for hours. I told him everything, he must be the most open minded and cool friend I have irl, so awesome. No boundaries on what I could talk with him and I told it all from NBE to transition to relationships to music and so on. He said some unexpected compliments about my looks, he said I'm almost like a different person. Jaw dropping moment when I told him all I got under the shirt and bra is just me, no flaunting with padding.  He complimented my figure and said that I got that feminine glow in me now and that my face is different. So nice to hear someone say those things, someone who I've known for over fifteen years.

I feel happy and euphoric. I think I got the most validation in one day I've ever had so far. This is what makes being trans absolutely fantastic some times. This rocky road is worth every tear. And that feminine glow... Do you see it too?

Yeah it can be rocky but I see and live it too, and as you know every tear is worth it in the end.

[Heaven's Night]

Another story time... Bunch of small nice surprises I've had lately.

I've been validated lately in such ways its very very positive and encouraging. I had a time not that long ago that I openly thought and said that I wouldn't think I would become credible or good looking woman, oh boy was I wrong! In very short time my looks have improved drastically, partly due to the amazing herbal program cooked up by our very own Lotus, part of it is getting a hang on which kind of makeup and clothing work on me. (Huge thanks for my angel of a girlfriend who has been very helpful with all this!) And thirdly I would think about my shitty confidence getting healed and backed up by positive experience...

I was on the street in from of our house talking with my next door neighbor the other day last week about some renovations going on here. Her bf came for a visit, stopped in front of us bit ways away. She introduced me to him and we talked for a bit. I went back home and heard today that my neighbors bf was completely surprised when she said my name, he said "I thought you were talking to a woman!" and ofc she then explained him that I'm mid transition. (My neighbor is lovely, she has bunch of trans friends and has been married to one and what not.) Anyway, apparently I passed completely without wearing revealing clothing, without makeup, without paying any attention to my voice which is a HUGE deal to me as my voice bothers me like nothing else. (Except for my facial hair which I hate with a vengeance.) This was a big time validation... With my voice, not hiding beard shadow, without anything to underline my femaleness, I passed to a complete stranger. Who ever believes we can't easily pass, think again! People's perception is such that when there's enough subtle cues on which gender they're dealing with, its a pass, I don't think I look or sound fem enough unless I pay attention to all this, but I guess I was wrong.... Take this as an encouragement, things might be easier than you think. <3

Yesterday we went shopping, I had the best makeup on I've ever had so far and made sure to be as fem as it can get with everything. I'm very aware of how people look at me and this time there was not a single weird look from anyone, usually there's at least one or two, but now, nothing out of the ordinary. This I think is very positive thing that I'm able to go out there without anyone paying special attention. Its very ironic that to get to that point, enough feminine boxes must be ticked to get over the uncanny valley of gender perception. Being flaunting enough for it to become invisible. Ofc not going over the top as that will gather unwanted attention like crazy of course. The new things I did yesterday were huge cute earrings, my hair tied up in a way I never did before and a purse, my gf gifted her old one to me which is very nice. And also I was wearing sneakers which make my feet look nicely smaller. I wore rather casual clothing, except for having my corset below the tanktop to accentuate my waist. And it worked like a charm. I don't even mind to look like a weirdo and stand out from the crowd, but its both validating and soothing to be able to go out and look like just an ordinary woman, albeit quite tall one at that. But tall ladies aren't that rare here. Lot of Finns are quite big in general and +180cm tall women are out there. I used to be insecure about my height, but these days I kinda like it... If I manage to build up bigger curves, I think my height will become an asset rather than hindrance. Some of the most beautiful women I know irl are quite tall.

As the cherry on the cake of feeling valid and cared for, my mother called me her daughter for the first time a while ago. She even congratulated me on my facebook post about booking the doctor to get my transition officially going. Wished me luck so I get a good doctor to deal with it. Its been really fantastic lately and I've surpassed my expectations on becoming passable, to be seen as a woman is highly empowering and nice experience. If I can do it, then you can too!

A diamond with a flaw is worth more than a pebble without imperfection. <3

[Heaven's Night]

Oh em gee, I can't believe this!!! I feel soooo validated.... This is the sort of cool that really makes this worth the effort. yesterday I sent more friend requests on my (quite) new FB account. I made it on the sole purpose to have a place to post trans related stuff + out myself to all closest friends without messing up my old account which is full of random people yadda yadda.

Anyway, our bands ex vocalist showed up, he came to ask in English who I was! He thought I was some foreign girl he doesn't even know. :O I had to explain him who I was and after a minute he finally got it, I think he had a jaw dropping moment, I sure as heck had.
That's not all, next one to show up was a childhood friend, she's a doctor these days. At first she didn't recognize at all who I was and almost declined the friend request, then went to see my profile and noticed a familiar birthday.... Went to take a closer look and realized its me. I had very nice talk with her btw, she gave me a good idea what to expect from my coming doctors visit.

This is just so out there! Friends who have known me for years or decades fail to know me from my pictures! I can't believe it. I take this as passing pretty well I would guess. lol. xD

[HalfBloodPrince]

Omg, what a day!

For the first time in a while I feel genuinely happy about life. This was the best day I've had for a while and definitely worth a story... I knew things would get soon better after I finish my job and I wasn't wrong. Loading batteries, getting rid of social exhaustion and blossoming spring time sure brought in nice things. The corona madness is starting to ease its grip and places are starting to open up and its time to be alive.

I hadn't had any relationship time with my gf for a while and today we decided to go out. First just to do shopping, me picking up a new batch of pm from the post office and so on. Then as we went we got the idea to grab an ice cream as the weather was so nice and warm. I went out loud and proud, flaunting my body with my new lovely corset below the tanktop, I wanted to go out there feeling so girly and cute. They say confidence makes pretty and it sure seems to do so. I took a conscious decision to really be me without restricting myself and to dress up nicely. Its the time of year, women get rid of all the cold weather clothes and go nuts about looking great, Finnish summer is so short we have to take all the fun out of it we can so why in the heck not.

 I didn't overdo anything, no makeup this time, but that corset is magic! And being all confident and smiles... Yea, that does it. No unwanted nasty attention at all, guys kept checking me out and some old drunk guy was even being somewhat flirtatious. Having ice cream wasn't enough so we ended up having few drinks at a bar as they're finally allowed to be open. Lot of people were out and about and I enjoyed every bit of it. It seems that I've gone so far that being bold enough with looks makes me 'invisible' enough. " alt="" title="">

And then to top it off, a good old friend of mine came for a visit first time in a year, we talked for hours. I told him everything, he must be the most open minded and cool friend I have irl, so awesome. No boundaries on what I could talk with him and I told it all from NBE to transition to relationships to music and so on. He said some unexpected compliments about my looks, he said I'm almost like a different person. Jaw dropping moment when I told him all I got under the shirt and bra is just me, no flaunting with padding.  " alt="" title=""> He complimented my figure and said that I got that feminine glow in me now and that my face is different. So nice to hear someone say those things, someone who I've known for over fifteen years.

I feel happy and euphoric. I think I got the most validation in one day I've ever had so far. This is what makes being trans absolutely fantastic some times. This rocky road is worth every tear. And that feminine glow... Do you see it too?

I strongly agree with that person. You are so beautiful @HelloDidi. Very few have the guts to do these kind of things.

What's beautiful in you

1.Your eyes. Your eye shape eye lashes can kill anyone with a smily look.

2. Your lips. Omg so juicy n pinkish lips which also looks pretty natural that whenever i saw those i want to kiss those for hours, days n years without leaving.

3. Your breats with perky nipples. Anybody cant hold himself when they saw what you hold. Its like anyone would like to touch it feel it n lot of things. But I respect every girl, so for that i need your permission. First any one can ask for permission. No force things. Please respect every gender n feelings n emotions. As a male i cant hold my feelings for you. I apologize if i said anything wrong or hurted anyone feelings.

4. Mad about see you from behine, hour glass waist with that big round bubble with oil massage on it will make you so adorable hot n erotic that anybody will fell down to your feet and ask you command me what you want Lovely lady.

5. Your legs ankles n toes are so feminine shape. I am good massage giver, whenever you are free n visit to my country feel free to have me as a friend. I can give you good body massage n  make you relax and then we can visit many beautiful places to see beauty of nature.

Leave it. I dont need to see any beauty of nature.

for us @Hellodidi is our princess n the Queen. She is the beauty of nature. Everybody download pic of @Hellodidi and watch it in morning your day will go awesome, fantastically magical with full of happiness.

Love you @HelloDidi.

[Heaven's Night]

Omg, what a day!

For the first time in a while I feel genuinely happy about life. This was the best day I've had for a while and definitely worth a story... I knew things would get soon better after I finish my job and I wasn't wrong. Loading batteries, getting rid of social exhaustion and blossoming spring time sure brought in nice things. The corona madness is starting to ease its grip and places are starting to open up and its time to be alive.

I hadn't had any relationship time with my gf for a while and today we decided to go out. First just to do shopping, me picking up a new batch of pm from the post office and so on. Then as we went we got the idea to grab an ice cream as the weather was so nice and warm. I went out loud and proud, flaunting my body with my new lovely corset below the tanktop, I wanted to go out there feeling so girly and cute. They say confidence makes pretty and it sure seems to do so. I took a conscious decision to really be me without restricting myself and to dress up nicely. Its the time of year, women get rid of all the cold weather clothes and go nuts about looking great, Finnish summer is so short we have to take all the fun out of it we can so why in the heck not.

 I didn't overdo anything, no makeup this time, but that corset is magic! And being all confident and smiles... Yea, that does it. No unwanted nasty attention at all, guys kept checking me out and some old drunk guy was even being somewhat flirtatious. Having ice cream wasn't enough so we ended up having few drinks at a bar as they're finally allowed to be open. Lot of people were out and about and I enjoyed every bit of it. It seems that I've gone so far that being bold enough with looks makes me 'invisible' enough. " alt="" title="">

And then to top it off, a good old friend of mine came for a visit first time in a year, we talked for hours. I told him everything, he must be the most open minded and cool friend I have irl, so awesome. No boundaries on what I could talk with him and I told it all from NBE to transition to relationships to music and so on. He said some unexpected compliments about my looks, he said I'm almost like a different person. Jaw dropping moment when I told him all I got under the shirt and bra is just me, no flaunting with padding.  " alt="" title=""> He complimented my figure and said that I got that feminine glow in me now and that my face is different. So nice to hear someone say those things, someone who I've known for over fifteen years.

I feel happy and euphoric. I think I got the most validation in one day I've ever had so far. This is what makes being trans absolutely fantastic some times. This rocky road is worth every tear. And that feminine glow... Do you see it too?

I strongly agree with that person. You are so beautiful @HelloDidi. Very few have the guts to do these kind of things.

What's beautiful in you

1.Your eyes. Your eye shape eye lashes can kill anyone with a smily look.

2. Your lips. Omg so juicy n pinkish lips which also looks pretty natural that whenever i saw those i want to kiss those for hours, days n years without leaving.

3. Your breats with perky nipples. Anybody cant hold himself when they saw what you hold. Its like anyone would like to touch it feel it n lot of things. But I respect every girl, so for that i need your permission. First any one can ask for permission. No force things. Please respect every gender n feelings n emotions. As a male i cant hold my feelings for you. I apologize if i said anything wrong or hurted anyone feelings.

4. Mad about see you from behine, hour glass waist with that big round bubble with oil massage on it will make you so adorable hot n erotic that anybody will fell down to your feet and ask you command me what you want Lovely lady.

5. Your legs ankles n toes are so feminine shape. I am good massage giver, whenever you are free n visit to my country feel free to have me as a friend. I can give you good body massage n  make you relax and then we can visit many beautiful places to see beauty of nature.

Leave it. I dont need to see any beauty of nature.

for us @Hellodidi is our princess n the Queen. She is the beauty of nature. Everybody download pic of @Hellodidi and watch it in morning your day will go awesome, fantastically magical with full of happiness.

Love you @HelloDidi.

Awww, thank you.

[HalfBloodPrince]

If @HelloDidi can then we can too.

You are our inspiration HelloDidi. you are our Wonder Woman.

We all will learn from you under your guidance.

[HalfBloodPrince]

@HelloDidi. i would like to dedicate a song of MJ : Blood is on the dance floor X Dangerous

Am a big fan of MJ. what is your favourite song HelloDidi which was sang by MJ

[HalfBloodPrince]

@Hello Didi

The way she came into the place

I knew right then and there

There was something different about this girl

The way she moved

Her hair her face her lines

Divinity in motion , like a goddess came down to earth

As she stalked the room

I could feel the aura of her presence

Every head turned feeling passion and lust

The girl is so hot horny juicy delicious beautiful fantastic bold n young pretty, lovely sexy

am speechless no word remains to describe that girl.

You can say the girl is killingly Dangerous.

The hot n happening Miss Beauty of Earth. The goddess of nature Miss Hello Didi.

[Heaven's Night]

@Hello Didi

The way she came into the place

I knew right then and there

There was something different about this girl

The way she moved

Her hair her face her lines

Divinity in motion , like a goddess came down to earth

As she stalked the room

I could feel the aura of her presence

Every head turned feeling passion and lust

The girl is so hot horny juicy delicious beautiful fantastic bold n young pretty, lovely sexy

am speechless no word remains to describe that girl.

You can say the girl is killingly Dangerous.

The hot n happening Miss Beauty of Earth. The goddess of nature Miss Hello Didi.

Oh wow... how had I completely missed this? Awww, that's so cute. <3 <3

I should update this thread some time, there would be a bunch of stories to tell by now as a lot has happened... When ever I'm on a writing mood I guess. ^_^