Yea She is back, up and running!
Great to hear that all is well in Lotus land. I knew you couldnt be too far away, and I'm happy that you change has been successful.

So I have to ask..
Why did you just go for Orchi, and not SRS?
I've always heard the strong argument that if your going through the pain and expense you might as well go all the way?

As always I treasure and love your wisdom and caring.
Huggs' Bobbi

So I have to ask..
Why did you just go for Orchi, and not SRS?
I've always heard the strong argument that if you're going through the pain and expense you might as well go all the way?

Good question Bobbi @ why not SRS?...Perhaps it was a bridge too far upon considering SRS at the time. An orchi was the logical choice for me being way less invasive. My orchiectomy is also referred to as a "Gender Affirmation Surgery (G.AS.)"

As always I treasure and love your wisdom and caring.
Huggs' Bobbi

Awe thank you Bobbi, I feel the same about you. 

Hi Lotus. <3 Its been a while. I'm gonna copy and save the info on MSM you put up there few messages back...

I would so much love to tell you how things are going, unless you've been reading my thread? You have at least two unanswered emails from me I think? If I remember, its been such a long time since we talked. So you got orchi done, how was the recovery?

I've missed you. Oh yea, I got a name now btw, took a while to figure it out.

I would so much love to tell you how things are going, unless you've been reading my thread?

Hi Didi, I'd love to hear how things are going. 

So you got orchi done, how was the recovery? 

Lol, about 3 days post op I had a woodie that lasted 2 days...kidding, it was intermittent throughout the day though. This was my body's reaction to the loss of testosterone, a.k.a negative feedback. I read a comment from someone that had an orchi and they stated how they had immediate relief from the loss of T. This wasn't the case for me though, I was on pain meds (yay)...however it took about a week to feel that relief of T, and it was incredible.

I've missed you. Oh yea, I got a name now btw, took a while to figure it out.

I've missed you too, check your PM.

Congratulations, Lotus. It's so wonderful when one of us is able to move closer to realizing our goals - it sounds like you just took a major step. Bravo, and kudos to you for your bravery.

Happy tucking.

Congratulations, Lotus. It's so wonderful when one of us is able to move closer to realizing our goals - it sounds like you just took a major step. Bravo, and kudos to you for your bravery.

Thank you Nipply. To be honest I hadn't given much thought as to the orchi being the next step, but you're right...thanks for pointing that out. Come to think of it...the last major step I took was going on HRT (from NBE) in 2014. 

Happy tucking

Thanks, tucking is much easier now.

Seems like I've tried every method and I'm still an A cup after 4 years. Should I kill myself.

Seems like I've tried every method and I'm still an A cup after 4 years. Should I kill myself.

Absolutely not. What methods have you tried?. It's quite possible that your T isn't suppressed enough to change the T/E2 (testosterone/estradiol) ratio. There's a multitude of reasons for lack of growth. Generally, I find that insulin resistance produces higher total, free and bioavailable Testosterone along with lower SHBG (sex hormone binding Globulin)...all of which will lower E2 (estradiol) making breast growth impossible. Without knowing what your current situation (bmi, androgen levels, stress factors, diet, etc) is it's hard to offer meaningful advice. 

Seems like I've tried every method and I'm still an A cup after 4 years. Should I kill myself.

Absolutely not. What methods have you tried?. It's quite possible that your T isn't suppressed enough to change the T/E2 (testosterone/estradiol) ratio. There's a multitude of reasons for lack of growth. Generally, I find that insulin resistance produces higher total, free and bioavailable Testosterone along with lower SHBG (sex hormone binding Globulin)...all of which will lower E2 (estradiol) making breast growth impossible. Without knowing what your current situation (bmi, androgen levels, stress factors, diet, etc) is it's hard to offer meaningful advice. 

My BMI is 25 right now, I've been weight cycling for years.

I am a tall ectomorph build. I have not had my SHBG tested. I have tried boron with high and low dose Estradiol.

I have tried oral/sublingual high and low dose. I have tried injection high and low dose estradiol.

I have tried transdermal, oral, rectal, and injection progesterone.

I have tried spironolactone, bicalutamide, and cyproterone.

For NBE I have tried every method.

I have been using noogleberry daily for years and I think that gave me A cups, for some reason they haven't got bigger.

I need big natural breasts to cover up my skinny wide chest.

I know my testosterone is suppressed, when I gain weight the fat goes to my butt and belly, my chest stays boney.

Seems like I've tried every method and I'm still an A cup after 4 years. Should I kill myself.

I'm sorry to hear that you're struggling with this. For what it might be worth, I offer the following:

If you find love/intimacy with a willing partner, I feel they're going to care a heck of a lot more about how you make them *feel* than how big your boobs are.

While I know that prominent breasts make it easier to display your gender, I can say that I've met very flat-chested women who were EXTREMELY sexy and compelling because of the way they carried themselves...and the way they made others feel.

To me, even a very flat chest with female nipples is still a feminine chest. And you can do lots of things to make your nipples more prominent.