Hi Everyone,
I’m Wilma, I chose that name because my online gaming username is Fred Flintstone and seeing as I want to semi feminise myself I thought choosing his wife’s name was more appropriate. My real name’s Martin, I’m 46 and I’m from the UK.
It seems I’m like most people here in that I started cross dressing when I was young. My sisters used to dress me up as a girl and I think some of that rubbed off. As I grew older it became more of a sexual thing for me and I liked wearing anything tight and preferably shiny, so leotards, leggings, panties and at the time stores like Woolworths and even Claires was selling leotards and cycling shorts so what I wanted was easy to get, which was handy as online shopping wasn’t even a thing back then. I’ll never forget one of the assistants in Woolworths laughing because her colleague had to serve a ‘pervert’, but that didn’t put me off because I got what I needed.
Then when I was about 18 I met a woman who was a bit older than me, we got on, she even encouraged me to cross dress before I even told her I did, we got married, but then she became controlling. One way in which she’d control me was she forced me to wear her clothes under mine when I went out which really sucked the fun out of it, she became violent, like stabbing me in shoulder or standing on my neck until I passed out, that kind of thing. We divorced and for a while I didn’t enjoy cross dressing as it was too painful emotionally.
Fast forward a few years, I moved on and met someone else, then one day I woke up and felt a little spark inside me. I suddenly felt the urge to cross dress again and by this time online shopping meant I had access to enough clothes to fill a wardrobe and with next day delivery. I felt happiness I hadn’t felt in a long time but this time something wasn’t right.
Quite recently, in the midst of lockdown, I was made aware of a YouTube channel by “J. Draper” where she talked about history, it was fascinating, then I came across a video where she talked about how she wore corsets. Corsets? Those are tight and sometimes shiny. I simply had to get me one of those, so after a bit of research I bought a black satin underbust corset because I didn’t have breasts but then later I bought a pink satin overbust corset for more coverage and it felt wonderful to wear it. I remember laying there holding myself wearing it, I had tears in my eyes, it was amazing. The only downside of the overbust corset was, if I had it on tight, the waist was perfect but there was always a gap at the top and at the hips, that’s when it hit me what wasn’t right, I don’t have the right shape any more.
When I was younger I was a lot thinner and had a narrow waist which was more feminine, but as I got older my shoulders and chest filled out (as did my belly during lockdown but I’m working on that). It soon dawned on me that it won’t feel right cross dressing until I get the right shape body and it wasn’t until I saw a packet of birth control pills my partners daughter had misplaced that I realised I could change the shape of my body, I pondered just taking some but came to my senses and thought I’d research first and I’m glad I did as although it could give me the shape of a woman, part of my reason for cross dressing is because it was sexual but if I took estrogen it could adversely effect that thus negating the point of taking estrogen. I'm also not wanting to transition to a woman, I wanted to be a man with a more feminine shape.
In the end I settled on buying silicon breasts, which would fill out the corset at the top and I've always wanted to wear a sports bra, but it's just not the same as you don't get the sensation. I started pondering the idea of changing my body through hormones again, so after days of reseach (when I should have been working...sorry boss) I found that there is a middle ground, taking specific herbs such as FG, which could grow breasts without effecting sexual performance. I was totally sold on the idea.
Which brings me to today. I've taken the plunge, a week ago I ordered Natureday pills which contains some of those wonder herbs and some PM cream to try to increase the size of my nipples, because why not.
Assuming this works, at some point I know someone will notice how I've grown. My excuse will be that I've been taking something to help ease the side effects of my inhaler and, oh no, I've developed breasts. I just hope I get to use that excuse.
Sorry for the long post, I just had to tell someone.
