This is going to be a frustrating post.
4 years? Me too and I'm a B cup, am quite happy with that though I do now want more but am only one cup larger than you thats not a massive amount.
It takes time and error, I have used a lot of crap in the past that did absolutely nothing but also stumbled upon the real stuff. Strangely the most popular or recommended brand of pm I find is total rubbish for me.
I agree with another member that some claim to gain a cup size monthly and that's ridiculous such constant miracle growth claims should be ignored and laughed at especially when the alphabet is no longer suffice for their cup size.
If that were the case you would only need to stand on their tits for a couple of months then be able to piss on the moon. So dont get depressed by others claims of spectacular progress.
You haven't cleaned your house for over a year. Well that's just fucking disgusting and you should be ashamed. I personally couldn't relax at home if I hadn't dusted, hoovered, wiped down counters that day and that's the absolute minimum!!!! And yes I do work too, very, very long hours but find time to clean.
If not having bouncy boobs depresses you that much get some implants and grab a mop and a duster, there is no excuse for living in your own dirt. There is no excuse for living in filth!
I have been depressed to the point of suicide, seriously but not going into my history, military etc but I was almost there. I obviously didn't for a few reasons bit a biggie was that somebody would have to find me and probably someone very close and I can't inflict that on anybody but I was close, very close. BUT!!! They would have found me in a fucking spotless house!!!!
I have no sympathy there, I hope you at least wash yourself but get off your arse, stop whining and try to be respectable, get cleaning!! There is no excuse and no sympathy for chosing to live in filth.