Hi everybody. Its day 500 and I guess I promised to update something... I wish I had something really worth an update but I don't. I didn't reach H/K cup limit yet, I'm just a tiny bit below. For some reason my boobs decided that they slowed down... Still got +49ccs more during the last fifteen days but after months of amazing development, this is a disappointment as I was expecting more.
My program is working fine, other than I decided to go totally off of progesterone cream and maybe find some other way to use it or just forget about it. Its just a big waste of money, way too expensive for what its worth. Royal Jelly seems to work fine, other than that I'm forced to take a break from it because it + plenty of Noogling hours seems to be giving me an allergic rash and dryness on my boobs which is a royal pain in the ass. I have had to take several breaks from Noogle and I'm still not completely clear.
It appears that everything that is supposed to aid with areola + nipple growth is out of my league because my body is such a goddamn super delicate disappointment it can't take anything. Seems like I'm fucking cursed with tiny nipples and can't even do anything about it. RJ is likely a periodic thing at best, PG cream was likely a total mistake and I can't do supple nips because those stupid things only give me blistered nipples and lots of pain. So I guess with nipples I'm at the mercy of my genetics and pure luck. Not that I would have ever wanted big nipples... Maybe T5 and lactation will at some point come in and save the day.
I'm moving to another phase with weight cycling, I decided that I'll go on a bit more rigorous plan for the coming at least two months because I want to seriously slim down my waist which is a gargantuan cause of dysphoria, probably one of the worst offenders right now. So simply eating less, moving more when ever my crippling depression and anxiety (and weather) allow me to go out.
Anyway, here's some measurements, interestingly, my bust changed nicely but volume didn't change that much its been for months now. I lost a bit from waist and gained a bit on my hips. So the direction is really good and I hope this keeps on going. But my ratios are shit. some zero point eight something. I look like a goddamn buffed out dude with shitty ratios like that. I'm hoping what I'm doing would at very least take me below 0,80 because like this, I look like a masculine shapeless blob. I have to get my tiny slim waist back. I was looking at old photos and stuff and realised that omg I've gotten so fat. My waist used to measure BELOW 75cm!! That's frigging 29,5". That was when I was at the slimmest I have ever been and my waist under all that fat is absolutely cute and tiny and I loved it so much. Now I'm just a shapeless chubby blob and I hate it. Curves are nice but not having a waist is just making my dysphoria horrendous and I must address this problem.
Standing bust: 130,5cm 51,3"
Leaning bust: 134cm 52,7"
Lying bust: 128,5cm 50,5"
Loose band: 102,5cm 40,3"
Snug band: 100cm 39,3"
Tight band: 96cm 37,7"
Waist: 104,5cm 41,1"
Hips: 128,5cm 50,5"
Here's some pictures. The one with a shirt I took without a bra below which was kinda nice surprise. Second is another boring frontal pic which I just took and ABTF calculator had this to say today.
I will now likely go on a hiatus, at least I wont be posting any big updates before the end of the year, I'll drop by every now and then to see what's going on on here. My mental health is in such shitty shape I need time for myself. I've had this coming for a long time that I'm just exhausted, I'm dead tired, out of juice, no energy or motivation for much anything. I can barely take care of myself and I keep forgetting a lot of things that I'm supposed be doing. I have been dramatically limiting my exposure online to a lot of things I just can't deal with. So yea, I'm taking a break. I want to concentrate on myself and my adorable partners and that's it. I need time for myself. And for my sweet Melissa.
My program is working fine, other than I decided to go totally off of progesterone cream and maybe find some other way to use it or just forget about it. Its just a big waste of money, way too expensive for what its worth. Royal Jelly seems to work fine, other than that I'm forced to take a break from it because it + plenty of Noogling hours seems to be giving me an allergic rash and dryness on my boobs which is a royal pain in the ass. I have had to take several breaks from Noogle and I'm still not completely clear.
It appears that everything that is supposed to aid with areola + nipple growth is out of my league because my body is such a goddamn super delicate disappointment it can't take anything. Seems like I'm fucking cursed with tiny nipples and can't even do anything about it. RJ is likely a periodic thing at best, PG cream was likely a total mistake and I can't do supple nips because those stupid things only give me blistered nipples and lots of pain. So I guess with nipples I'm at the mercy of my genetics and pure luck. Not that I would have ever wanted big nipples... Maybe T5 and lactation will at some point come in and save the day.
I'm moving to another phase with weight cycling, I decided that I'll go on a bit more rigorous plan for the coming at least two months because I want to seriously slim down my waist which is a gargantuan cause of dysphoria, probably one of the worst offenders right now. So simply eating less, moving more when ever my crippling depression and anxiety (and weather) allow me to go out.
Anyway, here's some measurements, interestingly, my bust changed nicely but volume didn't change that much its been for months now. I lost a bit from waist and gained a bit on my hips. So the direction is really good and I hope this keeps on going. But my ratios are shit. some zero point eight something. I look like a goddamn buffed out dude with shitty ratios like that. I'm hoping what I'm doing would at very least take me below 0,80 because like this, I look like a masculine shapeless blob. I have to get my tiny slim waist back. I was looking at old photos and stuff and realised that omg I've gotten so fat. My waist used to measure BELOW 75cm!! That's frigging 29,5". That was when I was at the slimmest I have ever been and my waist under all that fat is absolutely cute and tiny and I loved it so much. Now I'm just a shapeless chubby blob and I hate it. Curves are nice but not having a waist is just making my dysphoria horrendous and I must address this problem.
Standing bust: 130,5cm 51,3"
Leaning bust: 134cm 52,7"
Lying bust: 128,5cm 50,5"
Loose band: 102,5cm 40,3"
Snug band: 100cm 39,3"
Tight band: 96cm 37,7"
Waist: 104,5cm 41,1"
Hips: 128,5cm 50,5"
Here's some pictures. The one with a shirt I took without a bra below which was kinda nice surprise. Second is another boring frontal pic which I just took and ABTF calculator had this to say today.
I will now likely go on a hiatus, at least I wont be posting any big updates before the end of the year, I'll drop by every now and then to see what's going on on here. My mental health is in such shitty shape I need time for myself. I've had this coming for a long time that I'm just exhausted, I'm dead tired, out of juice, no energy or motivation for much anything. I can barely take care of myself and I keep forgetting a lot of things that I'm supposed be doing. I have been dramatically limiting my exposure online to a lot of things I just can't deal with. So yea, I'm taking a break. I want to concentrate on myself and my adorable partners and that's it. I need time for myself. And for my sweet Melissa.