Hello!
Wow, it's been a year already since I picked up that Pumeraria Mirifica bottle and decided to move forward into exploring the effects of estrogen for good. I never thought it would bring so much peace into my life! 1 year! Transitioning 1st came to my mind about 12 years ago and I have no regrets having postponed it. Even though, the results would be better, I'm glad to have pushed the man in me to the fullest extent of my capabilities, bearing the weight of a constant dysphoria along the way. It is now part of me and I don't have to bear it anymore. I feel free and in control. After coming out, I reached out to my extended family and lost connexions to make peace with my past and setting foundations for the future. I found out there was never a need to isolate myself in the 1st place if only to find myself. The support is overwhelming regardless of my conservative environnement.
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During summer, some political partner referred me for a chief financial officer position in a 20 milion dollars project privately funded and I was picked on the spot after the 1st interview in September. Just when I wanted to go back to work full-time! The owner told me that the reason I was chosen out of the lot is because I appear to let go easily. I don't have experience on a corporate board of administration, but I'm taking on the challenge! Being trans is very welcomed so I go to all meetings and hang outs dressed up feminine and to my surprise, it passes already with a broken French. These were my 1st experiences dressed up. So, I think I might be encouraged to continue on that career path as my new self if the project lifts off. Being CFO in large companies could be what gives me the motivation to remain in finance where adaptability matters the most as you have to bring different people together.
In fact, since August, when I'm freshly shaved, strangers tend to perceive me as a woman even though, I wear men's clothing most of the time. As long as it is fit. This brought me some pressure though because my voice wasn't functional. I witnessed some people's awkward reactions when speaking with my male voice ahah. So I put it to work and a friend I met online made me feel comfortable enough to start gaming with open mic and breaking into my feminine voice. Now, when I chat online and voice, I can use it and it works. I even get comments that my voice is relaxing. I got called mommy a few times. I'm super happy about it I keep running my mouth and talking to myself! I have Jamie-May and Mel87 to thank for the classes.
One funny thing about my voice is that I only practiced and learned in English and the muscles developped accordingly. So, now that I'm trying to speak French, It's broken and drops to androgynous easily. My beautician even mentioned that it's normal since my mother tongue was English. OMG, what a shame after living in Québec my whole life ahah!
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I find that adapting to strangers' feedback is how I prefer to transition. So no make up and manly dressed but fit most of the time gives me the clearest feedback I can get about where I stand in-between. When I'm being asked by my friends and family when I'm going to make "the switch", I reply that if they have to ask, it's because it's still too early. To me it's all about confort. Even though I can go out and try things, if I end up feeling uncomfortable, I stop and postpone it. So, not full-time yet. I needed to piece together a lot of courage just to publish this.
I'm creating this thread for inspiration and moving my transition diary here in the HRT section as I personally don't really want to post pictures of my skin. I'm also leaving phytoestrogen for good. I confidently know that supplementation built on Lotus' work and medication prescribed will optimize the results in the long term. I love the changes I see in the mirror and I'm looking forward to all the aesthetic treatments I'm going to get in the future to make it even better!
All and all I feel very happy. I wouldn't say that things go smooth at all times. I'm on a very low budget so my social activities are mostly halted to spend on the transition. It's a rough path but I take pleasure out of the challenges I face everyday.
I'll share my latest program and lab results in a later post.
Blessings to all!
- Manue unfiltered
Wow, it's been a year already since I picked up that Pumeraria Mirifica bottle and decided to move forward into exploring the effects of estrogen for good. I never thought it would bring so much peace into my life! 1 year! Transitioning 1st came to my mind about 12 years ago and I have no regrets having postponed it. Even though, the results would be better, I'm glad to have pushed the man in me to the fullest extent of my capabilities, bearing the weight of a constant dysphoria along the way. It is now part of me and I don't have to bear it anymore. I feel free and in control. After coming out, I reached out to my extended family and lost connexions to make peace with my past and setting foundations for the future. I found out there was never a need to isolate myself in the 1st place if only to find myself. The support is overwhelming regardless of my conservative environnement.
[attachment=19093] [attachment=19092]
During summer, some political partner referred me for a chief financial officer position in a 20 milion dollars project privately funded and I was picked on the spot after the 1st interview in September. Just when I wanted to go back to work full-time! The owner told me that the reason I was chosen out of the lot is because I appear to let go easily. I don't have experience on a corporate board of administration, but I'm taking on the challenge! Being trans is very welcomed so I go to all meetings and hang outs dressed up feminine and to my surprise, it passes already with a broken French. These were my 1st experiences dressed up. So, I think I might be encouraged to continue on that career path as my new self if the project lifts off. Being CFO in large companies could be what gives me the motivation to remain in finance where adaptability matters the most as you have to bring different people together.
In fact, since August, when I'm freshly shaved, strangers tend to perceive me as a woman even though, I wear men's clothing most of the time. As long as it is fit. This brought me some pressure though because my voice wasn't functional. I witnessed some people's awkward reactions when speaking with my male voice ahah. So I put it to work and a friend I met online made me feel comfortable enough to start gaming with open mic and breaking into my feminine voice. Now, when I chat online and voice, I can use it and it works. I even get comments that my voice is relaxing. I got called mommy a few times. I'm super happy about it I keep running my mouth and talking to myself! I have Jamie-May and Mel87 to thank for the classes.
One funny thing about my voice is that I only practiced and learned in English and the muscles developped accordingly. So, now that I'm trying to speak French, It's broken and drops to androgynous easily. My beautician even mentioned that it's normal since my mother tongue was English. OMG, what a shame after living in Québec my whole life ahah!
[attachment=19095] [attachment=19094]
I find that adapting to strangers' feedback is how I prefer to transition. So no make up and manly dressed but fit most of the time gives me the clearest feedback I can get about where I stand in-between. When I'm being asked by my friends and family when I'm going to make "the switch", I reply that if they have to ask, it's because it's still too early. To me it's all about confort. Even though I can go out and try things, if I end up feeling uncomfortable, I stop and postpone it. So, not full-time yet. I needed to piece together a lot of courage just to publish this.
I'm creating this thread for inspiration and moving my transition diary here in the HRT section as I personally don't really want to post pictures of my skin. I'm also leaving phytoestrogen for good. I confidently know that supplementation built on Lotus' work and medication prescribed will optimize the results in the long term. I love the changes I see in the mirror and I'm looking forward to all the aesthetic treatments I'm going to get in the future to make it even better!
All and all I feel very happy. I wouldn't say that things go smooth at all times. I'm on a very low budget so my social activities are mostly halted to spend on the transition. It's a rough path but I take pleasure out of the challenges I face everyday.
I'll share my latest program and lab results in a later post.
Blessings to all!
- Manue
unfiltered
The problem is that I'm straight! I still want to explore though, so I tell them right away with a "Good luck!". I love the flirt! Well, these men, no exception, became agressive and about to get violent. I gave chances and the next time got worse. I learned that when the tears (for me) and that cracking feeling come up, it's simply over. It happened when I wanted to understand something and was asking questions. In the past, I loved when women did that so I have no idea what's wrong! 
