I'm really feeling down about my face and body... At least everything neck down is going towards right direction. But I feel so fat and ugly, not wanted, not loved, unattractive. I think I wont post much body or face pics for a while, maybe not until I get the body contouring done and recover from it. Before that the problem parts wont get much better anyway. I wanted to slim down and get a decent hourglass figure going. Its obvious that that's where my body wants to go, but this last summer totally messed up my weight cycle and I gained instead of losing any. Obviously not looking as nice now, but at least I got plenty of hips and boobs from it.
I'm just really feeling off about myself, I don't want to see any mirrors or take any pictures. Other than boob pics as those show none of the stuff that is wrong. I wish I had something to boost my confidence, posting pics online feels so useless when too often I get called "average" or "nice" or faced with complete silence... Its not really helping. And in real life, all I have to help me with this is my girlfriend and very few others who actually like me, but their compliments and support is a bit different thing. Its not the same as casual friends or strangers who have no rose tinted glasses making them say and do things.
I feel ugly, less than a woman and not worhty. I'm totally put off by the idea of posting pictures. Its almost like last two autumns have been, I feel like I want to disappear and hibernate until world is nicer and my body closer to what I deserve to have. This time winter will bring in the most dramatic shift I've ever had so far. I'm hoping that where I have totally failed, some plastic surgery would fix things. I can't even make a good enough body proportions unlike others who are so much better off with everything... I need big money and drastic measures for it. At least I've gotten lucky to have help with this so I can maybe one day be happy somehow.
I'm just really feeling off about myself, I don't want to see any mirrors or take any pictures. Other than boob pics as those show none of the stuff that is wrong. I wish I had something to boost my confidence, posting pics online feels so useless when too often I get called "average" or "nice" or faced with complete silence... Its not really helping. And in real life, all I have to help me with this is my girlfriend and very few others who actually like me, but their compliments and support is a bit different thing. Its not the same as casual friends or strangers who have no rose tinted glasses making them say and do things.
I feel ugly, less than a woman and not worhty. I'm totally put off by the idea of posting pictures. Its almost like last two autumns have been, I feel like I want to disappear and hibernate until world is nicer and my body closer to what I deserve to have. This time winter will bring in the most dramatic shift I've ever had so far. I'm hoping that where I have totally failed, some plastic surgery would fix things. I can't even make a good enough body proportions unlike others who are so much better off with everything... I need big money and drastic measures for it. At least I've gotten lucky to have help with this so I can maybe one day be happy somehow.