Yea, my body is super nice neck down excluding yet un fixed genitals... And its going to get better. But what will save my face, I feel that I'm just not feminine and pretty enough and I don't want it to be just painted on. I've been told I'm beautiful, when ever people don't know about my background, but still its confusing because others say I'm some mediocre "nice" or someting. I feel that I'm ugly, I often see the same old face even though I know I have changed a lot for better... But somehow the attractive guy I was became some goddamn mediocre woman, I don't understand what does it other than it being my face? I have such body shape that most cis women don't have and I'm tall, not crazy tall but like a model tall. I know I'm quite a sight to behold in right clothing, but that's neck down.
My face isn't all that awesome. I wish I had +25000€ to fix it, but I never will. Some minor stuff I can get though, like filling the crazy canyons on my forehead. I could get lip filler, but I don't think I need it because my lips are pretty as can be along with my nose. Those I think are my redeeming qualities, the details that are not wrong. I think something about my eyes and jawline is what fucks things up. My eyes look so stupidly small as I have heavy eyelids. I heard once this kind of eyelids would be considered pretty in Japan. Yay, helps me so much as I'm on the other side of the fucking planet.
It feels like that the stress and depression of late has dried my boobs... At least I got the spare parts for the cups yesterday and I'm going full on in with pumping again. My plan is to really push the hours now, when ever I have time, I will have the pump going. I'm at the highest doses on the herbs I've been so far and I know its working, I want to take all advantage of this and pump a LOT. I have already pushed in over ninety hours during the first half of 28th month and that's a lot, I might be pushing near two hundred hours by the end of this month, its almost like full days at work seven days a week, like no joking with this amount of effort. At least its making miracles on my nipples, they're becoming so big I never even dreamed of this.
Speaking of which, if they're even a tiny bit stimulated or cold, they poke right through bras and tops and everything. I snapped a bra pic, by now I know the folding of the outer cup is a feature of these bras, kinda peculiar how its becoming really tight and full and yet the outer part folds... Everything is giving and elastic so no wonder I guess, and see what my nipples do. Right through it all. I predicted this bra having a nice mileage ahead, but its getting right quicker than I anticipated. Still more space to grow into as I can adjust it a bit more, straps are about 1/3 thigthened. Band second loosest setting, interestingly, bands on these bras tend to stretch out a lot in use, but I'm feeling already that soon I need the loosest setting no matter what. Usually I've gone a full circle from loosest to tightest and back once I start to outgrow them.
Then I took other pictures, I think by proportion there's s big difference to just a while back, I've taken these "same" picture many times before and it keeps on changing. My boobs are becoming so wide they're covering my arms in frontal pics. No complains, more is more.