31-12-2023, 04:22 AM
Hello All,
New member here who came by this site in a round about way and I think it is seducing me.
I'm 70 years old and I've had a lingerie fetish for as long as I can remember. I mean really as long as I can remember, almost the first thing I can remember. It has been a constant companion to my fantasies and I have indulged in lingerie wearing on and off over the years, and yes the purging as well.
I had one girlfriend early on who was accommodating but I then met my wife who was pretty vanilla and we have been married for over 40 years. I had tried to deny the fetish early on but it was inescapable and I eventually introduced it to my wife who found it quite confronting and its been an ongoing problem ever since. I never got the full acceptance I would have cherished. Move on a decade or two and menopause morphed vanilla indifference into full on asexuality. Our marriage has been sexless for 20 years now.
During that time I continued to dabble alone, on and off, in my fetishes but never much more than lingerie stuffed with chicken fillet enhancers. As an excess energy release a while back I started writing erotic stories on Literotica exploring some appealing scenarios, but again my wife was not interested and has read only one. There is a definite issue there of inhibition and lack of imagination.
Anyway for the last coiple of years I been having prostrate related problems and 18 months ago was prescribed dutasteride and tamsulosin. I believe those drugs affected me both physically and psychologically. I stopped using the meds after 9 months but it is my impression I had started to develop some gynecomastia during that time and it hasn't reduced much over the ensuing 10 months. Even though I stopped the drug treatment I had become rather erotically aroused by the thought of growing boobs at the time and have continued to be ever since. As far as I can tell the growth did not start with breast budding although the nipples were definitely more sensitive in a good way even though the bust filled out a bit. I rate myself as maybe an AA cup size.
My libido came back somewhat after stopping the dutaseride but effective functioning is very hit and miss. For the most part I end my lonely wanks now with just a small ejaculation from a flaccid member. It's not all bad since it has fed into an unrealized sissy fetish that I just wish my partner was willing to take and active part in it.
My wife has ignored the obvious so far and as there is very little physically going on between us nothing is said. We have had talks about the lack of sexuality in our marriage and how it has been hard for me, but all to no effect. She still is not accepting of the fact that my fetishes are not particularly uncommon for a male and on the scale of things quite harmless. She unenthusiastically accepts that I've started to wear panties more frequently as my normal underwear whereas it used to be just an occasional erotica thing.
Until I had my drug induced experience I have always been skeptical of the lotions and supplements business for bust enhancement and thought it unlikely to be of much use even for genetic females, but recently reading about PM I've been having second thoughts and starting to think my wife should have been using it herself for some time.
I've been trying Saw Palmetto recently to help the prostrate problems and I've noticed my nipples have been getting itchy lately. Reading here I'm now very tempted to add a course of PM just to see what happens even thought I doubt there will have much effect. But as others have noted doing that secretly might be a bit of a relationship hazard. I'm also wondering whether maybe there will also be a psychological side effect similar to the dutasteride. A further small breast development would be welcome and I think relatively unnoticeable.
I've added a couple of pics, one from when I first noted the dutasteride effect and again recently after I trimmed the chest hair to see my projection more clearly. The only real change I see myself is perhaps another inframmary line forming a bit lower than the initial bust development.
New member here who came by this site in a round about way and I think it is seducing me.
I'm 70 years old and I've had a lingerie fetish for as long as I can remember. I mean really as long as I can remember, almost the first thing I can remember. It has been a constant companion to my fantasies and I have indulged in lingerie wearing on and off over the years, and yes the purging as well.
I had one girlfriend early on who was accommodating but I then met my wife who was pretty vanilla and we have been married for over 40 years. I had tried to deny the fetish early on but it was inescapable and I eventually introduced it to my wife who found it quite confronting and its been an ongoing problem ever since. I never got the full acceptance I would have cherished. Move on a decade or two and menopause morphed vanilla indifference into full on asexuality. Our marriage has been sexless for 20 years now.
During that time I continued to dabble alone, on and off, in my fetishes but never much more than lingerie stuffed with chicken fillet enhancers. As an excess energy release a while back I started writing erotic stories on Literotica exploring some appealing scenarios, but again my wife was not interested and has read only one. There is a definite issue there of inhibition and lack of imagination.
Anyway for the last coiple of years I been having prostrate related problems and 18 months ago was prescribed dutasteride and tamsulosin. I believe those drugs affected me both physically and psychologically. I stopped using the meds after 9 months but it is my impression I had started to develop some gynecomastia during that time and it hasn't reduced much over the ensuing 10 months. Even though I stopped the drug treatment I had become rather erotically aroused by the thought of growing boobs at the time and have continued to be ever since. As far as I can tell the growth did not start with breast budding although the nipples were definitely more sensitive in a good way even though the bust filled out a bit. I rate myself as maybe an AA cup size.
My libido came back somewhat after stopping the dutaseride but effective functioning is very hit and miss. For the most part I end my lonely wanks now with just a small ejaculation from a flaccid member. It's not all bad since it has fed into an unrealized sissy fetish that I just wish my partner was willing to take and active part in it.
My wife has ignored the obvious so far and as there is very little physically going on between us nothing is said. We have had talks about the lack of sexuality in our marriage and how it has been hard for me, but all to no effect. She still is not accepting of the fact that my fetishes are not particularly uncommon for a male and on the scale of things quite harmless. She unenthusiastically accepts that I've started to wear panties more frequently as my normal underwear whereas it used to be just an occasional erotica thing.
Until I had my drug induced experience I have always been skeptical of the lotions and supplements business for bust enhancement and thought it unlikely to be of much use even for genetic females, but recently reading about PM I've been having second thoughts and starting to think my wife should have been using it herself for some time.
I've been trying Saw Palmetto recently to help the prostrate problems and I've noticed my nipples have been getting itchy lately. Reading here I'm now very tempted to add a course of PM just to see what happens even thought I doubt there will have much effect. But as others have noted doing that secretly might be a bit of a relationship hazard. I'm also wondering whether maybe there will also be a psychological side effect similar to the dutasteride. A further small breast development would be welcome and I think relatively unnoticeable.
I've added a couple of pics, one from when I first noted the dutasteride effect and again recently after I trimmed the chest hair to see my projection more clearly. The only real change I see myself is perhaps another inframmary line forming a bit lower than the initial bust development.
