When I first found this site, I thought it would be an interesting experiment to make my gyno man boob chest look a bit nicer. Nothing at all made me to believe that there was so much more under the surface.
Several years have gone by and along with my physical changes, it is also obvious mental changes. It's hard to explain but the more I feminize the more I want to carry it further. As I have had changes, I have progressed from just wanting a slightly curvier chest to wanting a bigger butt, hips, smaller waist, and more feminine looking chest. I feel I am still in the Males Staying Male, but now wearing women's panties all the time and don't think twice about wearing a bra. Without a bra, my chest and nipples show through all my shirts, even as they become even more obvious and I really don't care. I don't feel like I want to be a woman, but I do love the changes I am having.
Was this all within me originally? or has the herbs changed my way of thinking? Is PM addicting, as every break I look forward to starting it again? It's scary how I feel euphoric when I start back on my program. I have even been considering pharma HRT, which is so far off from what I had in mind when I started here.
This brings me to the recent conversation with my wife while sitting on the beach. I was sitting in lounge chair and my wife made a comment about my chest and nipples becoming very obvious. She tossed me one of her her swim covers and said try this on for size, and laughed. I think she was surprised I actually put it on and wore it. It gave me a very strange, almost giddy feeling wearing it.
While we were sitting on the beach, with me wearing her cover-up, she started asking me a lot of questions. This was the first time we discussed in depth.
Q - Are you still trying to make your tits bigger? Your nipples already stick out through every shirt you own.
A - I don't have any issues with having breasts or my nipples show. I see no need to hide them or cover them up. Nobody gives a crap if I have tits or can see my nipples.
Q - There are several bras in your panty drawer. When / where do you wear them?
A - I have been wearing a sports bra when I go running, and sometimes to the gym. I feel I don't have to wear one yet, but it's a strange turn-on just wearing it in public, plus it does help with the bounce and makes my nipples less visible. I'm still trying to get the nerve to wear to work under a polo shirt.
Q - Are you taking estrogen? I was looking through your drawer and see you now have estrogen cream along with everything else.
A - I experiment with many different herbs and use mirifica and progesterone currently. I just recently started experimenting with the estrogen cream, just using it once in a while just to see how I react.
Q - You already have boobs, how big do you want?
A - I like how they feel, and my chest and nipples have become a part of my sexuality. When I take breaks, the sensitive goes away. I really don't want to go too much bigger, maybe another cup size. What I really want is larger areolas. I know you like playing with them too!
Q - Your skin is softer than mine! Why is your chest and body so smooth?
A - I told her about using her IPL hair removal everywhere on my body. Most areas it just got rid of all the dark thick hairs and now it just grows in real light and soft. I also told her about using my homemade lotion ( mirifica & white peony) which also makes my skin super soft and also seems to slow hair growth. I asked her if she will IPL the areas I can't reach. She agreed.
Q - I noticed you not lifting and doing alot of yoga, and body shaping video workouts. Are you trying look more like a woman?
A - I am trying for a more slender / curvy and less muscular shape. It seems to be working, along with the herbs I do feel like I have had some weight shift to my hips and butt. I still have a long way to go to have the body of a woman.
Q - Do you want to be a woman? It's 2024, there is nothing wrong if you want to be a woman.
A - I really enjoy being a man. I just find my chest and nipples are a major turn on. I also like having soft hairless chest and body and even don't mind when my butt and hips gain a bit of weight. I do what feels right. I'm far to big and masculine to ever present as woman. I would have a hard time giving up things like having male friends, having sex with women, and the obvious advantages with my work.
Q - Are you trans?
A - I have asked myself that many times, but I don't think so. I do want a softer/less masculine appearance, but I don't want to be female. I do fantasize about being a woman at times. Perhaps I'm bi-gender.
Q - If you could switch sex completely, would you want to?
A - I would love to switch completely, but only if I was born that way. If I was going to live as a female, I would want to experience sex as a woman, get pregnant, give birth and breast feed. With my current body, I feel me dressing and acting like a woman would be just a futile act. I would switch bodies with you for a while.
Q - Why are your nipples so far apart? They would look better if they were closer together ( She started pushing them together trying to make clevage ). Your nipples also point down, they are not very perky. Your boobs just don't look quite right on you.
A - Because I'm a big GUY with a wide chest starting with manboobs. I think they are just too small for my frame. She just rolled her eyes at that and just shook her head.
I asked her if she is OK if I take the experiment a little further. I told her I always stop when I feel my nipples getting sore, as my libdo starts to suffer. This time I want to go past that just for a 6 month period using real estrogen and see what happens. She said she didn't care as long, as we could still have sex.
We ended the conversation with me telling her she wasn't getting her cover-up back... It's mine now.
