My story is. Bit complex but ill try to shorten it down.
...Well, I tried to transition when I was 18-19 years old and didn't get far about a year or two. It was diy and was hormonal and social transition but due to circumstances and threats of violence and some close assaults by people (not every interaction with the public was bad though) and i looked a lot more androgynous than i do now. and fear my parents and my community rejecting me word spreads really fest here as everyone's close knit aswell as the fact my friends wouldn't have supported it I ended up stopping it.
I went 14 years without any hrt in my system, almost ended up in rehab and so now I NEED to start again but I'm in a different place in my life than when I was at 19 and due to the climate in my country, the growing hostility and bills bieng made to take away rights and also i pribably wont pass and just cos I want to and can't be bothered anymore with social transition, im just going to hormonally transition while staying male ie I would like to make my body as feminized as possible ie having breasts, having a butt l, a narrow waist ,no facial hair my eyebrows done, maybe facial feminisation if I have the money for it
(I doubt that that wull ever happen at this rate) and androgynous voice training later on down the line while staying male....so yes I'm a genetic male staying in the male social role indefinitely, possibly forever, and im %100 okay with that. But gender wise I'm definitely not male but im fine with bieng called a guy cos thats what I'll be presenting as.Do I count as a male staying male? Am I valid and can I stay on this board?