19-07-2024, 02:05 PM
(19-07-2024, 05:55 AM)HelloDiDi Wrote: Almost thirty seven months. I met my brother yesterday, first time in about a year. I missed him so much. Mom cooked and I ended up drinking more than I usually do to keep my anxiety at bay. Otherwise it was a fun night but I got a brain splitting headache from the wine. Thankfully it wasn't red, that would have been worse.You look gorgeous. Be strong. Hard times make stronger person.
I was quite sad about feeling like an outsider as everybody was all over my brother and everything about his kids and grand kids and all that cishet perfection. He was the only one who asked me how I'm doing, otherwise I felt like I was just a non person. Not that I would have any life to talk about, I don't have any merits of cishet "normalcy" at all so nothing to talk about. It would be kinda boring anyway, I'm depressed and miss my dog every day, I struggle with anxiety, lack of money, difficulty arranging my transition and that's about all there is. And everything else is in your face visible...
I took some pics as it was perfect excuse to get a bit dolled up. I wore the cheetah print dress which is really lovely and cool on hot days. Yesterday was quite hot on Finnish standards. The thing I keep noticing lately is that my face is changing, I think my weight gain has hit the right places and the skincare routine is really working well. For once I managed to snap a selfie in a car which looks somewhat decent.
What do you think of my eye makeup? I think I'm starting to nail it pretty well.