[PerkyAcups]

a lot has happened since I last posted on this topic.  After months of wearing the tank tops my wife bought me under my shirts I bought a men's compression bra.  I was so nervous showing it to her.  I showed it my wife and she agreed it made my chest look better with t-shirts on.  After that I started wearing it daily.  I let her see me in it a few times.  folding laundry she handed them to me saying here are your bras.  

During this I was seeing a therapist and finally one day I sat down with my wife and told her I intentionally grew breasts.  I told her wearing a sexy bra and panties sounded nice.  And I told her I still sometimes wish I could grow them bigger.  She doesn't understand why I would do that and concerned I wanted to transition.  After that I only took the compression bras off to sleep. I was trying my best to conceal my breasts from wife so she wouldn't get upset. Funny thing is during that time I got used to wearing one.  Now I am uncomfortable and self-conscious not in a bra.  

I needed a skin color bra to wear under lighter shirts.  I bought two of the minimizer bras I attached.  I took the pads out because I felt it gave me too much projection.  I was worried to show my wife these.  The last ones I told her were for men. These are clearing for a female.  Before I had the chance to say something she surprised me one day before I could get my shirt on.  I continued to get dressed while I was listening.  She didn't pay any attention to my bra.  

When I started NBE I kept saying it is a fetish.  Being in therapy I am realizing I have a strong feminine side. My whole life I have only shown a strong masculine self, but Since puberty I was removing pubic hair and chest hair. Occasionally trimming leg hair or armpit hair, but I always felt so wrong for doing it.  Further into NBE I was scared I would go too far and scared of wanting to look feminine.  I think I have been at odds with myself for decades.  Now I have realized I am a strong masculine man that lives a very masculine life, but I also have a strong feminine side. I am learning that is okay to have both.  I can wear my boots and jeans and keep living my masculine life and have breasts and a smooth body underneath. 

I am going to try leaning into my feminine side for a little while under my clothes. See how I feel.  Making my body as soft and smooth as I can under my clothes.  My stomach, chest, and pubic hair have all been laser removed.  I shaved my armpits and thighs and feet and trim my leg hair short.  I am wearing a bra daily and sexy men's underwear.  Hoping to get a few panties and sexy bras down the road.  I am going to keep this routine for a while. See how it makes me feel.   I will say this, as soon as I trimmed my leg hair I loved it. I liked how it looked, how they felt in my jeans.  

It finally hit me. I have real female breasts. I need to treat them as such. With support, hygiene, and modesty.  And you know what, I love all of it.  I learned a fetish isn't the cause of my breasts.  I just couldn't make myself believe I wanted breasts.  It makes since. Several of you on my journey commented it sounded like I really did want breasts.  

I think my topic title fits me perfect.  I am a masculine man with breasts.  I attached a pic of two bras i am wearing daily.  I have a white minimizer bra coming in today.

[huckleberrywine]

Hey Perky,

Hope you're doing well.  I have to say, I was worried for you when you said you were going to come clean to your wife,  I know my wife would not have been nearly as forgiving as yours. 

Your boobs look amazing! Im hoping your lovely wife will be onboard with future growth soon!

Huck

[PerkyAcups]

Hey Perky,

Hope you're doing well.  I have to say, I was worried for you when you said you were going to come clean to your wife,  I know my wife would not have been nearly as forgiving as yours. 

Your boobs look amazing! Im hoping your lovely wife will be onboard with future growth soon!

Huck

thank you for worrying about me.  Telling my wife everything was part of my steps.  I was worried as well. For about 3 weeks we both knew I had this long list read but needed to find the right alone time.  She could see how the stress was building on me leading up to telling her.  It was the hardest thing I have ever done.  She has been very understanding; I am blessed to have her.  

thanks for the boob comment.  I am really happy with them.  It wouldn't hurt my feelings if they got a little fuller down the road.  But for now, I am enjoying finding my feminine side.

[Mindhak]

Very nice and very inspiring. Thank you for sharing

[Billie88]

thank you for worrying about me.  Telling my wife everything was part of my steps.  I was worried as well. For about 3 weeks we both knew I had this long list read but needed to find the right alone time.  She could see how the stress was building on me leading up to telling her.  It was the hardest thing I have ever done.  She has been very understanding; I am blessed to have her.  
thanks for the boob comment.  I am really happy with them.  It wouldn't hurt my feelings if they got a little fuller down the road.  But for now, I am enjoying finding my feminine side.

Thankyou for the update!

I completely understand where you're at and I feel I am in a very similar situation.

THANK GOD FOR OUR UNDERSTANDING SPOUSES!!!

I'm so grateful that my wife is supportive.