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23-05-2012, 04:01 AM
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ok, so-far not to bad aside from being a grump, allthough that could be down to simply having a LOUSY day.
(you name it, it went wrong)
probably going to go back on the PM tomorrow, btw freddy, what is that avatar of yours from?
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Lenneth,
I've been looking for an avatar that would speak to me, and others. I found this while searching Yahoo images and thought it worked!
Thank you for asking about it!
My PM is due to arrive tomorrow! That will be about 9 days after ordering, and has given me some time to get some SP in my system. The SP (and I've increased it to 1350 from 900 per day) is having an effect - but the PM is going to have the real impact.
Lenneth, is just 2 days off PM going to be enough?
freddy
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I did a cold turkey experiment for 7 days. (Click on my name to the left and go down to "find all threads" if you are interested) and logged my experiences for each day. It took me about 6 days to recover full functionality and TS obsessions. Day 2 was the worst for depression.
Since then I've been using Butea Superba every day, and that seems to give me the level of libido and functionality that I'm happy with, without the need for regular cold turkey.
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(23-05-2012, 11:25 AM)freddy Wrote: Lenneth, is just 2 days off PM going to be enough?
(23-05-2012, 03:05 PM)bryony Wrote: I did a cold turkey experiment for 7 days. (Click on my name to the left and go down to "find all threads" if you are interested) and logged my experiences for each day. It took me about 6 days to recover full functionality and TS obsessions. Day 2 was the worst for depression.
Since then I've been using Butea Superba every day, and that seems to give me the level of libido and functionality that I'm happy with, without the need for regular cold turkey.
B.
I'm not worried about "Functionallity" at the moment, no issues with that other than gaining a measure of control over it, no I did this just to see what would happen, and to see if it could encourage more growth.
No depression issues, but I am getting unexplainable stress and minor CD urges returning.
ive decided to go back on PM today anyway.
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(23-05-2012, 07:13 PM)Lenneth Wrote: (23-05-2012, 11:25 AM)freddy Wrote: Lenneth, is just 2 days off PM going to be enough?
(23-05-2012, 03:05 PM)bryony Wrote: I did a cold turkey experiment for 7 days. (Click on my name to the left and go down to "find all threads" if you are interested) and logged my experiences for each day. It took me about 6 days to recover full functionality and TS obsessions. Day 2 was the worst for depression.
Since then I've been using Butea Superba every day, and that seems to give me the level of libido and functionality that I'm happy with, without the need for regular cold turkey.
B.
I'm not worried about "Functionallity" at the moment, no issues with that other than gaining a measure of control over it, no I did this just to see what would happen, and to see if it could encourage more growth.
No depression issues, but I am getting unexplainable stress and minor CD urges returning.
ive decided to go back on PM today anyway.
Well... "unexplainable" by anything other than gender dysphoria...
The depression kicks in after 20/30 years (in my case, anyway!)
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yes the Dysphoria would explain it, and it "melted" away less than an hour after taking some PM.
best way I can describe it without a needless long explanation.
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(23-05-2012, 10:47 PM)Lenneth Wrote: yes the Dysphoria would explain it, and it "melted" away less than an hour after taking some PM.
best way I can describe it without a needless long explanation.
Your experience is pretty much what we all find in doing that. The time taken and intensity naturally varies from person to person, but the underlying symptoms are there.
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(24-05-2012, 06:58 AM)Pansy-Mae Wrote: (23-05-2012, 10:47 PM)Lenneth Wrote: yes the Dysphoria would explain it, and it "melted" away less than an hour after taking some PM.
best way I can describe it without a needless long explanation.
Your experience is pretty much what we all find in doing that. The time taken and intensity naturally varies from person to person, but the underlying symptoms are there.
It just goes to show what a strange bag of chemicals we are. Conditions in my life that hitherto I used to rationalise my depression have not changed, yet I can address them positively now, or accept what I cannot do anything about.
I'm pretty sure that all forms of depression are caused by endocrine imbalances, e.g. post-natal depression.
What's annoying is that (from what I read) doctors in my country ("universal healthcare")wouldn't prescribe Estrogen to fix my mental health without insisting that I spend some months in a dress! (I may be wrong - I haven't been to find out). Once that happens I guess you are pretty much committed.
And yet, having forced people to look freakish (unless they are lucky enough to look naturally feminine) they won't do anything to help them look the part in terms of cosmetic surgery... just reengineer the normally invisible plumbing in case they (a) fancy men and (b) get very lucky indeed.
Thank God for herbal remedies.... as long as the EU or the FDA don't take sufficient bribes from the Pharma people to put the kibosh on it!
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24-05-2012, 08:50 PM
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(24-05-2012, 03:43 PM)bryony Wrote: It just goes to show what a strange bag of chemicals we are. Conditions in my life that hitherto I used to rationalise my depression have not changed, yet I can address them positively now, or accept what I cannot do anything about.
I'm pretty sure that all forms of depression are caused by endocrine imbalances, e.g. post-natal depression.
What's annoying is that (from what I read) doctors in my country ("universal healthcare")wouldn't prescribe Estrogen to fix my mental health without insisting that I spend some months in a dress! (I may be wrong - I haven't been to find out). Once that happens I guess you are pretty much committed.
it's 1 Full year here, and it is monitored routinely by a doctor.
(24-05-2012, 03:43 PM)bryony Wrote: Thank God for herbal remedies.... as long as the EU or the FDA don't take sufficient bribes from the Pharma people to put the kibosh on it!
Unfortunately the FDA have been in bed with both Big Pharma and Big Agriculture (and others) jointly with the WHO etc for years, they are just waiting for the right moment to sneak something in when the general population aren't watching to closely.
Want Proof, watch this vid and research "Codex Alimentarius":
http://video.google.com/videoplay?docid=...2495233634
the level of political power (on a global scale) that these twisted and corrupt mega corps are allowed to have is enough to make you physically ill.
One of the latest ones is they have been having Federal Law Enforcement to conduct Armed Raids on people for things as innocent as selling Raw Milk or Organic Foods.
(I WISH I was making that up)
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A note On my Progress
Last night I noticed the entire breast area(s) had a VERY Noticeable dull Ache to them, one that has continued today and increased a small but noticeable amount combined with a ticklish/tingling/Itchy sensation around the edges.
the sensations are increasing/decreasing randomly and massage seems to sooth the ache when it gets annoying.
(No, no buds yet) but something is definitely going on....
