(15-01-2013, 07:20 PM)samcollins Wrote: Hi. This is my first post.
I am taking FG, SP and RC daily and have been for about a month. My intention is to go up to PM in a couple of month to help things along.
I am a long time closeted transgender male who has longed to transition since I was a child. I am married with children and commitments amd need to go slow but accept that now is the time in my life. .
My question really is how far along the transition route is it possible to go through herbs alone before I have to make the appointment with the GP, a thing I have been dreading.
I am looking for more than a but of chest growth, is it possible to obtain feminine features as hormones would do without going down the hormine route.
In advance Thanks for reading and responding.
Sam.
Whew.... does your wife know? Does she accept it? Kids, how old? What do/will they think?
I'll answer your specific questions below, but first, some caveats.
Unless you have got the complete backing of your wife and kids, you risk losing everything you hold dear.
That said, all is not lost... I am/was sort of in the same boat. I'm 60, kids are 30 and 25. Wife is understanding but could not tolerate the idea of me trying to present as female (and I don't blame her).
Are your drivers feeling of depression, existential angst, feelings of dread as you near the end of your life? If you are lucky, then you may find, as I did, that taking PM not only causes breast growth but also removes the pressing need to want to dress/present as female.
Once I started taking Pueraria Mirifica I lost all of the gender dysphoric symptoms that were making my life a misery. If you are the same, you can almost live a normal life as a male and not feel more than a wistful yearning that life did not turn out differently. I say "almost" because the growth of breasts mean no more family holidays with bare tops in a swimming pool (though I believe swim tops are available for beach wear).
The most important thing is to talk to your wife, if you haven't already, to see what level she is willing to tolerate.
Mine was very unhappy at the thought of my growing breasts, but she agreed to it as it quite clearly fixed all of my mental problems, and I became a happier, more balanced personality.
I would recommend that you try the same approach.
This isn't meant to be a sermon, but will probably sound like one...
Whenever I hear that a married man with kids (like me) is contemplating transition, I try to encourage them to think of what life would be like if the boot was on the other foot: imagine if your wife wanted to start taking testosterone, have her breasts removed, voice breaking, beard, losing hair develop shoulders, strong biceps, maybe get a barbed wire tattoo, etc. How would you feel? Would you be content to have an effective homosexual relationship with her? Because that is what a transitioning husband is expecting of his wife.
To answer your question, yes, PM will feminise you in a similar way to real estrogen, although it does not agree with some people.
I have been taking PM only since Sep 2011, so that is 16 months. I now fit a 36A bra, and given that female breast growing takes about 3 years, I may well turn out to be a B cup, possibly a C, who knows?
My weight oscillates by about 3lb / month. As a result, my upper abdomen has gradually been losing fat on the downswing, and the area above my hip bones and my buttocks have been gaining fat on the upswing. Right now my hips would look feminine if there wasn't a "dimple" caused by my smaller sized hip bones. I imagine more fat will get deposited there over time.
Libido is under control. No more compulsive masturbation, or desire to watch pornography, or to dress in female undies. Nocturnal erections do not happen, nor daytime spontaneous onces. They are possible, but only when wanted.
The only thing that would get me to a gender clinic would be the sudden disappearance from the market of PM. At 60, I feel far too old to go through the shennanigans required to successfully masquerade as a female, which would most definitely include Facial surgery (if I could afford it - I can't).
But the great thing is that I don't need to. The great majority of my GID symptoms are now under control and I can get on with other things.
I realise your situation may well be different, but that's how I see it.
Good luck,
Bryony
