Welcome to Breast Nexus, frontier.
My reasons for joining the forum were exactly the same as yours. After years and years of suffering from what Dr. Anne Vitale terms 'gender expression deprivation anxiety disorder (GEDAD), and recently learning that it can be treated by adjusting one's hormonal balance, I starting a program of taking a daily dose of Pueraria Mirifica. I had no previous experience with phyto-estrogenic herbs.
I, too, was after the mental benefits that members like bryony and Doodlebug were reporting. And, despite wanting breasts as long as I can remember, I was not sure I wanted to develop breasts in the process.
From personal experience, the mental benefits of PM came very early. After two weeks on PM, at which time I was taking 2000 mg daily, my wife commented on how much she like the way I was treating her lately. I had not yet told her that I was taking PM. I could tell that I was experiencing unusually wide swings in my emotional state, most likely the result of having just come out to her about my mixed gender identity. Eventually, my emotions stabilized, but to this day I am more sensitive emotionally than before.
I liked the effects of the PM on my state of mind, but was worried about the possibility of losing my sex drive and growing noticeable breasts. Both are real affects of taking PM that you should not underestimate. Prolonged use could also cause sterility. The good news is that if you react badly to PM, or don't like the effects within the first couple of months, you can discontinue with no irreversible damage done.
At week 3, the typical male build up of sexual tension that leads to wanting sexual release disappeared. I wouldn't say my interest in sex disappeared altogether, but was transformed into a desire for intimacy that I never had before. My sexuality seemed to become more in tune with that of my wife, and I liked that.
As far as breast growth, I started to see and feel the effects of PM in just 2 weeks. My nipples became very sensitive. By week 3 they started to stick out and get hard. A month in, my breasts became sore with noticeable swelling beneath the nipples.
I'm in week 12 now, and I have noticeable breast growth. I'm of two minds about it. On the one hand I love the progress I'm getting. On the other hand, it's hitting home that my life is going to be affected significantly if I go beyond a certain point. As time goes on, I find myself becoming more and more comfortable with all the changes that PM has brought about. My mental attitude changes along with the physical changes, so only time with tell where it takes me.
Good luck on your journey wherever it takes you, frontier.
ClaraKay