16-09-2011, 11:49 PM
Sometimes replies to threads, contain nuggets of information that are lost, in the greter whole. Today I was strongly moved, by catching sight of myself, in a mirror; looking back at me was a middle aged woman. Last night, I was overwelmed by the joy of knowing, that I will wake up as a woman and spend, not just the next day, but every remaining day, of my life, as a woman.
A lot of this was brought about by my 2nd round of lip tattooing, with the resultant feeling, of having taken another, decisive, step forward
In understanding this, dear reader, you need to understand that I have been totured, by gender dysphoria, all my sentinent life and tried to deal with it by rigerous suppression. As a result, I thought I would try and pull things together. in one thread. What has been the effect of PM on Chrissie and what lessons are there for others.
1] PM grows boobs. How big will depend on your genetic make up and, almost certainly, on yor T levels. I have just made a 38C and am still growing. Be under no illusions, you will grow boobs and have to deal with that.
2] This is slow; I have been on PM 31 months. Then, again, remember that full breast developement, takes most young women around 4 years.
3] I found that an early effect, was a change in mood and personality. I became calmer, more empathetic and way less aggressive. I know that some, such as Pansy-Mae, report no changes, while others report changes, similar to mine. It is interesting to note that Pansy-Mae is somewhat ambiguous, whereas I am not. Whether that means PM feeds our expectations, or whether some of us are programmed to respond to oestrogen, more than others, remains an interesting question.
4]There are all sorts of surprising side effects: loss of stengh, a loss of interest in DIY, a decrease in skills, requiring spacial awareness and a change in what tastes and flavours interest you. Your body odour, will change.
5]About 13 months, in I was acutely aware of my expanding chest and looked for; and found, local support. Without it and the support of female friends, I do not know how I would have coped
6]The prospect, of coming out, is scary but you will find who your friends are. In the UK, prople are amazingly tolerant. I came to Conwy, in May and feel well accepted, even admired and certainly feel I am seen as one of the towns characters. In that, I feel that, being totaly up front with who and what I am, has been very significant.
As to the idea of reverting to male mode; I would rather die; I just cannot envisage it, anymore. For the first time, in my life, I am me and it has taken 62 years to get here, what a waste!
A lot of this was brought about by my 2nd round of lip tattooing, with the resultant feeling, of having taken another, decisive, step forward
In understanding this, dear reader, you need to understand that I have been totured, by gender dysphoria, all my sentinent life and tried to deal with it by rigerous suppression. As a result, I thought I would try and pull things together. in one thread. What has been the effect of PM on Chrissie and what lessons are there for others.1] PM grows boobs. How big will depend on your genetic make up and, almost certainly, on yor T levels. I have just made a 38C and am still growing. Be under no illusions, you will grow boobs and have to deal with that.
2] This is slow; I have been on PM 31 months. Then, again, remember that full breast developement, takes most young women around 4 years.
3] I found that an early effect, was a change in mood and personality. I became calmer, more empathetic and way less aggressive. I know that some, such as Pansy-Mae, report no changes, while others report changes, similar to mine. It is interesting to note that Pansy-Mae is somewhat ambiguous, whereas I am not. Whether that means PM feeds our expectations, or whether some of us are programmed to respond to oestrogen, more than others, remains an interesting question.
4]There are all sorts of surprising side effects: loss of stengh, a loss of interest in DIY, a decrease in skills, requiring spacial awareness and a change in what tastes and flavours interest you. Your body odour, will change.
5]About 13 months, in I was acutely aware of my expanding chest and looked for; and found, local support. Without it and the support of female friends, I do not know how I would have coped
6]The prospect, of coming out, is scary but you will find who your friends are. In the UK, prople are amazingly tolerant. I came to Conwy, in May and feel well accepted, even admired and certainly feel I am seen as one of the towns characters. In that, I feel that, being totaly up front with who and what I am, has been very significant.
As to the idea of reverting to male mode; I would rather die; I just cannot envisage it, anymore. For the first time, in my life, I am me and it has taken 62 years to get here, what a waste!
