I have also never used any PM other than Ainterol R1, so I can't comment on the difference with other formulas or brands. I agree with Doodlebug that different "batches" could vary from one another (especially since I've read some articles that the efficacy of PM is largely dependent on the time of year it is harvested). Still, there's no use in worrying about what we can't control.
When I first came to this forum breast growth and feminization were my primary goals. That was a difficult decision for me since I am married (20+ years), have 4 children and a successful career. All of that was jeopardized to some degree by those desires (which had gotten to the point I could no longer ignore and felt I had to act or I would go crazy). The desires and anxiety were affecting my relationships and work (significantly).
PM changed that dramatically. The anxiety is completely gone. I am more productive at work and closer to my family than I have ever been. I no longer feel compelled to express as a women (in fact I am very content with who I am). That doesn't mean that I don't prefer femininity -- I do in fact. I just don't have the overwhelming urges I had before.
So my only dilemma is that fact that PM will certainly change me physically. As bryony has stated before that's OK as the PM gives me the soundness of mind to deal with the changes. But I still have the potential issue of the changes becoming so pronounced that my family, friends, and coworkers will notice.
It's possible that such drastic changes will never materialize since I experience the mental benefits at relatively low doses. There definitely are changes happening though! My breasts are sore all the time and my nipples are extremely sensitive. I do believe there is growth occurring -- I just don't know how much will happen at my current dosage. I am also noticing fat redistribution, and I have already commented on the skin softness. I *really* like all of the changes and effects!
The bottom line is that some of us here are more committed to remaining "male" than others, simply because we are further along in life and have more at risk (and less time left). I'm not minimizing the decision for anyone, and in many ways I envy the younger and unattached members as you are freer to pursue the dream that is out of my reach. That being said, I truly treasure all the insight and advice I get from everyone here. I am happier now than I can ever remember being before...
Misty