[Katie]

I had a rather Odd experience yeasterday evening that Kinda surprised me!

I`d been watching a film with my wife and eating chocolate (as usual) and thought perhaps I should go wash my hands as they felt a bit sticky, so Off I go to the bathroom, and what seems like for the first time Ever I actually Saw myself, and though Holy Shit! I`m a freakin` Girl!!!
Sudden intake of breath and I just stood there looking in complete disbeleif! I started pulling faces and trying to do Man face and look mean and all sorts of maleish type faces I`d used over the years and I still just looked like a girl! in fact some of the faces I pulled just made me look Cute! no matter what I did I couldn`t shake her! there was a 100% Woman looking back at me and that Woman was ME.
I`d actually gone and bloody Done it! I was a girl! and I was stuck like this forever!
I thought OMG is ever "He" came back he`d be Royally F**ked!!! there`s no going back from this now! without realising it, somehow at some point over the last 25 months I`d become what I`d always wanted to be and never even realised it!
it`s one thing to know something on an intelectual level and be able to list all the reason why you now look feminine etc... like it`s some sort of to-do list you`re ticking off one by one, but it`s a Whole Other thing to actually Experience it and Feel it!

after what seemed like ages, I just smiled, gave myself a wink, blew myself a kiss and went off to watch the rest of my film, which didn`t really sink in because I was still too shocked, and I might just have to watch the rest of it again! LOL

I`v no idea where it came from, I`v been able to look in the mirror quite normally since I started to transition, unlike before when I`d avoid mirrors and cameras at all costs, but only Yesterday did it hit me.
Now I`m just left with this sort of warn glow and internal smile that feels really nice (and a little bit sexy if I`m honest LOL),.

What a Rush!

[The First Aria]

My Therapist and GD both said that day will come to me as well...  Usually about 3 yrs after start up of HRT is what the GD mentioned.  I guess I will see if it happens to me as well then.  Glad that you are enjoying the adventure.

XO

[Katie]

I`v never seen a therapist of any sort and only been back to my doctors once since I started transition, so i wish someone had told me! LOL.
It was like Who`s this strange Woman looking back at me? what`s she doing in my bathroom? She`s kinda nice! is that Me!?... all taking place in a fraction of second, it was like Freaky Friday body-swap movie whe they first realise that they`ve changed bodies (I can so relate to that now!).

the only thing I can think of that might have done this, and feel free to offere a different opinion if you think it sounds like bullsh!t, but Maybe I`d been so used to seeing a different image over the majority of my life (50 years), and was so involved n watching my film that I`d "forgotten" that i`d changed anythng, and That`s what`s caused me to actually "see Myself" for the first time as if I were an Objective viewer.
I can`t really think of anything else it could be?

[The First Aria]

It's definitely can be earth shaking....  any revelation or awaking.  

I remember about 5 months after my heart attack and surgery, that I had only just started back to work....  And I was standing there staring at myself in the mirror while shaving.....   I had just finished rinsing the left over lather off of my face when it hit me how dam old I really looked.  Not only that, but how haggard and worn out I looked as well.

I simply could NOT believe that the face I now saw, was me...  " Where in the Hell, did this old man come from? " , I asked myself.  I stood there with tears in my eyes for like another 5 minutes.  So, at least your revelation was a lot more pleasant, than what I had.  So, thank you for giving me hope of a second "re birth ", as it were.

[Katie]

it`ll Totally happen babes! you`ll look in that mirror one day and think Holy Crap! I`m a MILF!!!!

[JennaFae]

it`ll Totally happen babes! you`ll look in that mirror one day and think Holy Crap! I`m a MILF!!!!

Lol Katie, you crack me up!

I’ve been on hrt for almost 6 months now and for me, it seems like a gradual thing so far.  I see a woman more and more over time (little things really) but I really would love to have a BAM!! moment like that.  Must do wonders psychologically speaking.  Well, here’s hoping xxx

Jenna

[Katie]

it Is a really slow process, but happily it`s not actually hard work, all you have to do is just keep taking the pills and hold on tight, nature does the rest. I think I described the effects once as being "Dramaticaly Subtle", you can tell Something`s happening, but you can quite pin-point what exactly. it`sreally quite magical in my opinion.
and of course in the meantime you can get be getting on with other stuff to further your transition too, so it doesn`t actually feel like a waiting game, but rather something a bit more pro-active.
You will absolutely get there! and it is really nice feeling although it`s quite a shock when it does hit you!
I think (for me at least) one of the nicest parts is knowing that I`m still not 100% there yet either, that`s there`s plenty more to go and look forwards to, I`v been on HRT for just over 2 years, but only about 18 months of that has been on a full transition dose, so all of the effects are not over!  
so when you think, if I look this Female Now, what about later, maybe I`ll get Prettier? develop more lovely curves? how amazing is it going to look when I`v had Laser or electrolysis? etc...
You`ll Always have something to look forwards to, something that gives you Hope, and that`s not to mention all the adventures you`ll have when you start passing and going out socialising, you`ve quite literally got your whole life ahead of you to look forward to, and that`s the Truly Magical part! ❤️ xx

[Katie]

ooops I did it again....(in my best Britany Spears voice)

8 months later and it happened again, I was taken completely by surprise.
I was working on a midi keyboard that needed repairing, I`d just firgured out the problem and was about to start the repair with m trusty screwdriver at the ready, I do what I always do, put on some lipstick, tie my hair back and roll my sleeves up.
I got up to put my lippy on and a second into it, it hit me hard! "I`m putting lipstick on a Woman!!!!" it`s like I didn`t recognise myself at all, there was just this woman in the mirror and I was putting lipstick on her!???
I guess part of me was in complete Work-Mode where my Gender as such doesn`t even come into it, if anything I`d identify as an Agender Machine when I`v got my work head on. and seeing that in the mirror really surprised me!
what really shocked me was that because I like Girls as well as Guys, when I saw this "stranger" I remember thinking "I Like her!"
needless to say, after I got over it, I just gave myself a wink, tied my hair up, rolled up my sleeves and completed the repair excellently, but it`s a real Head-F**k when it happens! and the shock/surprised feeling has stayed with me for days, in a nice way.

I`v definitely made the right choice, and I`m never ever ever going back! xx

[julieTG]

I had a smaller but similar experience this week,

I walked into the bathroom and the shade was down so darkish
when I looked sideways into the mirror and saw the shaded silouhette with head cut off , arms extended I
just saw breasts and the shape of a female it was


wtf moment

x

Julie

x

[happyboobs]

Katie that is so awesome and cool!  I am happy for you!

My only issues so far ... and since I am not near as far as you into transition is I always seem to be bumping into something and hitting my breast! Ouch... I need remember the girls stick out, but the mind seems to always have the body and arms a a too close length.

did you have to deal with this too and how did you over come it?