I have been taking 2000mg of PM a day and using the PM cream 3 or 4 times a day for 6 days now. I would say anyone that saw me in real life they say  I am very masculine.  I have big tattoos and a big beard. I build old hot rods, raced motorcycles, hunt.  I feel very masculine. I have no desire to transition.  I am a man.  

  I had my pubs and chest hair laser removed years ago. I was lifting a lot of weights then and I looked good I think.  Fast forward many years of internet porn and I have developed many fetishes. One being SPH ( small penis humiliation), I started getting turned on by my small hairless penis.  It embarrassed me, but turned me on so much thinking about people finding out I had about this.  I started using a laser hair removal on my armpits.  I started getting so excited about what people would think when they find out I have hairless armpits. It seems so unmasculine and out of character.  

Then one night I am on webcam on chaturbate and someone says you have cute girly tits. I was truly shocked. I never looked at myself that way.  I saw myself in totally different way.  When I looked in the mirror naked I saw a tattooed bearded man with with a small hairless penis, no armpit hair, and fairly feminine breasts.  When dressed I look like a different person I think.  I started to get excited thinking about having small feminine breasts. Not big breasts just a little bigger than mine and perkier.  Just enough if I took my shirt off people might think he has little boobs.   So I started using PM.  I get so turned on thinking about my breasts growing while I am rubbing the cream in that I might do it four or five times a day.  I get so excited taking the pills knowing this will speed the process up and greatly increase the chance of being permanent.   

I have read countless posts on this website.  I know all of you will tell me my reasons for growing breasts is wrong.  You are right.  I am really nervous they will grow to big and I won't be able to hide them. The chance of being permanently too big is scary, but I really do want to see what my breasts would like a little bigger.  I think they could look really good with my smooth body.  Reading these posts I really want to feel myself bud.  What a rush knowing you might have passed the point of no return. 

 My plan is stay on 2000mg of PM until I first bud.   I will continue taking the pills until it runs out.  I will continue the cream until it runs out. Then I will completely stop.  I have some breasts and only time will tell if they are permanent.   

Please don't judge me too harshly.  I do read and respect every response and opinion and look forward to being part of this community.  I am very excited about this journey and can't wait to see my breasts getting bigger.

Re: I know all of you will tell me my reasons for growing breasts is wrong

Very few people here would say that, if any, and they would be in the minority if they did. 

Everyone has their own reasons and motivations and your reasons are just as valid as the next person. 

Having said that, some do enjoy the thrill of going against the grain and this isn't meant to temper that. 

There are plenty of people out there who think what we aim for here is a bit nuts, but here, the wide variety of motivations is generally quite welcome.

Besides, if there was only one right way (and no doubt a rare few may be inclined to think so), even this would get pretty dull as a pursuit.

We don't break the mold to simply adopt another one. Charting one's own course is itself the way...

Re: I know all of you will tell me my reasons for growing breasts is wrong

Very few people here would say that, if any, and they would be in the minority if they did. 

Everyone has their own reasons and motivations and your reasons are just as valid as the next person. 

Having said that, some do enjoy the thrill of going against the grain and this isn't meant to temper that. 

There are plenty of people out there who think what we aim for here is a bit nuts, but here, the wide variety of motivations is generally quite welcome.

Besides, if there was only one right way (and no doubt a rare few may be inclined to think so), even this would get pretty dull as a pursuit.

We don't break the mold to simply adopt another one. Charting one's own course is itself the way...

thank you for the words. I appreciate it.  I saw your one year picture. Wow, your breasts are perfect. That is incredible.  I am afraid there is no way I could hide those. I am hoping for something smaller. Actually probably not much bigger than I have now. Just more defined with a little more mass. 

Since starting I also have been lifting a lot of weights. Especially chest exercises.  I don't know if that will be counter productive. But I maybe I can blame some increased breast size on working out hard in my early 40's. 

I am a little worried my breasts may get too noticeable before I actually bud.  Then I am not sure what to do. Stop and let them go away. Or continue taking the pills as planned until I bud good and then stop taking everything. Praying if anything is permanent enough fat will go away to make them a size I can deal with.

Today makes 7 days on 2000mg of PM.  Up until this morning I would say I have had no effects.  But today my breasts feel really weird.  I can't really explain it.  My breasts feel sore or full. Firmer if I poke them.  It has been like this all morning. I don't feel like this is all in my head.  It is really distracting. Both breasts just ache or something.

I have been working out pretty hard for the last two weeks. I am feeling good. Yesterday the weather was awesome. I took my shirt off to get some sun and drank some beer with a friend while the kids played. It hit me pretty hard then. I don't really want boobs. I want to take my shirt off and look strong and masculine.

I told myself I was going to take the pills until I had budding. But I don't want anything permanent. I am going to continue taking 2000mg a day until the bottle runs out and then stop. that would be 25 days at 2000mg a day. I am on day 8 now. So I have 17 more days. hoping I can temporarily enjoy some inflated breasts and exercise hard to lose them.

As of day 8. Nothing crazy happening. My breasts feel much firmer and heavier feeling. Breasts still kind of ache throughout the day. I notice they are there all day.

I have been working out pretty hard for the last two weeks. I am feeling good. Yesterday the weather was awesome. I took my shirt off to get some sun and drank some beer with a friend while the kids played. It hit me pretty hard then. I don't really want boobs. I want to take my shirt off and look strong and masculine.

I told myself I was going to take the pills until I had budding. But I don't want anything permanent. I am going to continue taking 2000mg a day until the bottle runs out and then stop. that would be 25 days at 2000mg a day. I am on day 8 now. So I have 17 more days. hoping I can temporarily enjoy some inflated breasts and exercise hard to lose them.

As of day 8. Nothing crazy happening. My breasts feel much firmer and heavier feeling. Breasts still kind of ache throughout the day. I notice they are there all day.

I have read your thread with interest and have to say that you look damn good with the breasts and no body hair - hot!

Funny thing about growing breasts - I think that it can become addictive. I started some years back and have continued through much deliberation and many pauses. It seems to me that growing breasts is sort of like people who get a tattoo then want more and more.

I started with large pecs from years of working out (still work out). Having discovered that they could fill some bras, I decided to see if I could grow them into full breasts. I have tried many different methods and continuing the workouts has helped with the shaping and filling in the top of them. 

After about 7 years, I am usually at a 38B in a bra, sometimes a C, and plan to take it to a full C.  At that point, I have no idea if I will continue. I sometimes wonder about my appearance with breasts that large (I am 5'2", 140lbs), but it doesn't seem to stop me. Part of it is that at 66, I figure most older men now have breasts due to meds and diet, so who is going to really notice mine.

I wear a bra almost full time at home and often in public in a sort of stealth mode. I have also made some changes in my wardrobe due partially to the breasts and also because of other body changes with age.

PM has permanent effects and works like estrogen, as  you know. Of course it works differently on everyone, but I suspect that you will get some changes and whatever breast development will be permanent.  I started on it one time at the base dosage, but did not continue.

Right now I am using fenugreek with much success - larger breasts and no other side effects.

I look forward to reading more of your story as you move along this journey!

Joey

[attachment=16584]have been on PM for 14 days. 2000mg a day plus cream 4 times a day. I missed a couple days in a row because i was getting too nervous. I doubt anyone can see a change and there probably isn't any. The last week i have been very aware of my breasts. Without a shirt on when i look down they look very proniunced to me. In the mirror i feel like my breasts have lifted a little. They feel heavier for sure.
I put a dress shirt on today i havent worn in a while. It was too tight in the chest. I had to change i think it probably shrunk, but it made me think.

14 day pic

Hey!
If I don't go wrong you wanted to stop around the 1 month mark. Since you already have quite some boobs on your chest, you can be assured that just one month on PM will not make a difference.
You will feel a difference in the form of soft skin, sensitive nipples, maybe even some added weight to the boobs given by the extra blood circulating in there, but it's unlikely that your breasts will grow enough for others to notice.
Remember that everyone gains and loses weight, so a tiny bit of growth and loss is normal for every person.

I wish you all the best in your quest.

I have been working out pretty hard for the last two weeks. I am feeling good. Yesterday the weather was awesome. I took my shirt off to get some sun and drank some beer with a friend while the kids played. It hit me pretty hard then. I don't really want boobs. I want to take my shirt off and look strong and masculine.

I told myself I was going to take the pills until I had budding. But I don't want anything permanent. I am going to continue taking 2000mg a day until the bottle runs out and then stop. that would be 25 days at 2000mg a day. I am on day 8 now. So I have 17 more days. hoping I can temporarily enjoy some inflated breasts and exercise hard to lose them.

As of day 8. Nothing crazy happening. My breasts feel much firmer and heavier feeling. Breasts still kind of ache throughout the day. I notice they are there all day.

I have read your thread with interest and have to say that you look damn good with the breasts and no body hair - hot!

Funny thing about growing breasts - I think that it can become addictive. I started some years back and have continued through much deliberation and many pauses. It seems to me that growing breasts is sort of like people who get a tattoo then want more and more.

I started with large pecs from years of working out (still work out). Having discovered that they could fill some bras, I decided to see if I could grow them into full breasts. I have tried many different methods and continuing the workouts has helped with the shaping and filling in the top of them. 

After about 7 years, I am usually at a 38B in a bra, sometimes a C, and plan to take it to a full C.  At that point, I have no idea if I will continue. I sometimes wonder about my appearance with breasts that large (I am 5'2", 140lbs), but it doesn't seem to stop me. Part of it is that at 66, I figure most older men now have breasts due to  meds and diet, so who is going to really notice mine.

I wear a bra almost full time at home and often in public in a sort of stealth mode. I have also made some changes in my wardrobe due partially to the breasts and also because of other body changes with age.

PM has permanent effects and works like estrogen, as  you know. Of course it works differently on everyone, but I suspect that you will get some changes and whatever breast development will be permanent.  I started on it one time at the base dosage, but did not continue.

Right now I am using fenugreek with much success - larger breasts and no other side effects.

I look forward to reading more of your story as you move along this journey!

Joey

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Hey!
If I don't go wrong you wanted to stop around the 1 month mark. Since you already have quite some boobs on your chest, you can be assured that just one month on PM will not make a difference.
You will feel a difference in the form of soft skin, sensitive nipples, maybe even some added weight to the boobs given by the extra blood circulating in there, but it's unlikely that your breasts will grow enough for others to notice.
Remember that everyone gains and loses weight, so a tiny bit of growth and loss is normal for every person.

I wish you all the best in your quest.

Shiraznm, one of my fears is since as you say i already have quite some boobs is that maybe they wont notice they are bigger, but they will for the first time notice i have breasts. 

What do you think about my current size and possibilities?