I do think I should explain myself and why I'm here.
I grew up in a disfunctional family, was the youngest of 4 and mum desperately wanted another daughter so I became her. I grew up female and even though I knew I had a willy I was a girl and that was absolutely normal for me. Then teenage puberty hit in and went on a rebellion and chose to do things and make choices that broke mums heart. But I was good at being ....not nice. Sorry don't know how to explain myself without compromise.
Anyway, that's me, I was from birth a girl and treated as one until I wasnt. I even had to be examined at the airport in the late 60s as my passport said male but I was in a skirt and very long hair and quite pretty then, cried so much at being examined, well had a tantrum so huge the flight was delayed as i ran and it took them a while to find me. Alright this was a military flight from a military base, RAF Brize Norton so they didn't have cameras and surveillance to find where a little girl could possibly hide. Very small people can hide in absurdy small places, no am not a dwarf just a bit small-ish. Mum has a lot to answer for.
But that's Drew, grew up female but rebelled when puberty hit in and did everything I possibly could to be alpha and extreme military to upset mum as much as I could and did. But! IDK glad to have found this site the support and gold mine of information I wish we would have had Internet and understanding of gender much earlier then I would have never had to become male. We could have blocked T before puberty but who knew that was possible then.
I grew up in a disfunctional family, was the youngest of 4 and mum desperately wanted another daughter so I became her. I grew up female and even though I knew I had a willy I was a girl and that was absolutely normal for me. Then teenage puberty hit in and went on a rebellion and chose to do things and make choices that broke mums heart. But I was good at being ....not nice. Sorry don't know how to explain myself without compromise.
Anyway, that's me, I was from birth a girl and treated as one until I wasnt. I even had to be examined at the airport in the late 60s as my passport said male but I was in a skirt and very long hair and quite pretty then, cried so much at being examined, well had a tantrum so huge the flight was delayed as i ran and it took them a while to find me. Alright this was a military flight from a military base, RAF Brize Norton so they didn't have cameras and surveillance to find where a little girl could possibly hide. Very small people can hide in absurdy small places, no am not a dwarf just a bit small-ish. Mum has a lot to answer for.
But that's Drew, grew up female but rebelled when puberty hit in and did everything I possibly could to be alpha and extreme military to upset mum as much as I could and did. But! IDK glad to have found this site the support and gold mine of information I wish we would have had Internet and understanding of gender much earlier then I would have never had to become male. We could have blocked T before puberty but who knew that was possible then.
This post was last modified: 20-10-2021, 02:55 PM by Drew.
Carrying on. I upset the flight it was over an hour delayed because they couldnt find the privelaged little high officers bitch daughter that ran but eventually they got me.
I was positioned in a seat not with my brother and sister but in the middle seat between 2 red headed teenage identical twins who I was scared of, thought they would be mean to me or beat me up for delaying the flight. I was still upset and crying when they finally got me on the plane those sort of gasping for breath sob's and scared about my seating. I curled up and slept for the 6 hour flight was exhausted but my sister told me the twins gently lifted my head to place a cushion and put a blanket over me and took particular care and attention and wow, they scared me so much but were attentive and caring. This was a life lesson for me, I was extremely upset, scared, violated and afraid but those I perceved to be a threat were really protective. My sister across the aisle thanked them for being so attentive. I didn't know, but when I found out in the car afterward on the way to the mountain how much the people who frightened me but cared for me and I didn't get the chance to thank them I punched my big sister in the face. Then she absolutely beat the crap out of me that dad had to stop the car and tear us apart as I was getting seriously beaten from big sis.
I was positioned in a seat not with my brother and sister but in the middle seat between 2 red headed teenage identical twins who I was scared of, thought they would be mean to me or beat me up for delaying the flight. I was still upset and crying when they finally got me on the plane those sort of gasping for breath sob's and scared about my seating. I curled up and slept for the 6 hour flight was exhausted but my sister told me the twins gently lifted my head to place a cushion and put a blanket over me and took particular care and attention and wow, they scared me so much but were attentive and caring. This was a life lesson for me, I was extremely upset, scared, violated and afraid but those I perceved to be a threat were really protective. My sister across the aisle thanked them for being so attentive. I didn't know, but when I found out in the car afterward on the way to the mountain how much the people who frightened me but cared for me and I didn't get the chance to thank them I punched my big sister in the face. Then she absolutely beat the crap out of me that dad had to stop the car and tear us apart as I was getting seriously beaten from big sis.
This post was last modified: 20-10-2021, 03:59 PM by Drew.
(20-10-2021, 05:04 PM)Happyme Wrote: Thanks Drew for sharing.oh is a lot more Bobbi, my big sister often beat the crap out of me for just being me but she loved me
Its wonderful to know the more of you.
Love you in either gender.
Bobbi
As a little sister was loved but hated me as a brother we still don't talk after over 30 years of turmoil but I don't care. The family I created matters more than the one I was born into.
Hi Drew,
Another thanks for sharing about you!
My mother wanted a girl. I was a boy, but I think that my inner girl was formed when I was in the womb. Yes, I was in a very dysfunctional family. As a child, I hated my life and wished that I was born a girl. I was expected to be manly and I tried so hard to fill that role. I would often have dreams at night that I was a girl. I hid all of it, tried to live what everyone wanted and hated myself for almost 6 decades. I finally accept myself. My inner self is all woman, and I am trying to feminize my body.
Kay
Hi Drew, we are a lot alike. I developed gynocomastia as a teenager and my mother was absolutely delighted. She constantly praised my feminine development and bought me all sorts of lovely things to wear. By age 18 I was a full 38C cup and we were wearing the same bras. We often went out as mother and daughter. I had a sister who had no interest in being a woman, so my mother concentrated on making me one- which I loved. I spent most of my adulthood in male mode but binding my breasts for work. Finally realized I looked more female that male and went over to the other side. I LOVE being a woman and the world accepts me as one. Thanks Mother.
(26-10-2021, 09:49 PM)Connie Wrote: Hi Drew, we are a lot alike. I developed gynocomastia as a teenager and my mother was absolutely delighted. She constantly praised my feminine development and bought me all sorts of lovely things to wear. By age 18 I was a full 38C cup and we were wearing the same bras. We often went out as mother and daughter. I had a sister who had no interest in being a woman, so my mother concentrated on making me one- which I loved. I spent most of my adulthood in male mode but binding my breasts for work. Finally realized I looked more female that male and went over to the other side. I LOVE being a woman and the world accepts me as one. Thanks Mother.
Hi Connie,
That is so awesome! I am happy for you. Stories like ours warm my heart!
Kay
(27-10-2021, 12:06 AM)Kay Wrote:I agree, think for most this isn't a fetishism but something that we were born with. The old excuse "I was born in the wrong body" really makes me cringe whenever I hear that. We were born who we are it's not the body that matters but the person you are inside.
(26-10-2021, 09:49 PM)Connie Wrote: Hi Drew, we are a lot alike. I developed gynocomastia as a teenager and my mother was absolutely delighted. She constantly praised my feminine development and bought me all sorts of lovely things to wear. By age 18 I was a full 38C cup and we were wearing the same bras. We often went out as mother and daughter. I had a sister who had no interest in being a woman, so my mother concentrated on making me one- which I loved. I spent most of my adulthood in male mode but binding my breasts for work. Finally realized I looked more female that male and went over to the other side. I LOVE being a woman and the world accepts me as one. Thanks Mother.
Hi Connie,
That is so awesome! I am happy for you. Stories like ours warm my heart!
Kay
We can correct the body to a certain extent to fit better in with the person we feel we have always been.
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I agree, think for most this isn't a fetishism but something that we were born with. The old excuse "I was born in the wrong body" really makes me cringe whenever I hear that. We were born who we are it's not the body that matters but the person you are inside.
We can correct the body to a certain extent to fit better in with the person we feel we have always been.
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Thank you Drew, very true!!
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