A bit like you kylec, I am who I am, but in a different way.
As a kid I never felt the desire to be a be a girl at all, but when I discovered girls at the age of 10 and I became fascinated with the choice of clothing they have compared to the boring boy stuff.
This mainly stemmed from one of the girls in my village who we used to all play together. You never could predict what she'd be wearing - one day jeans and t-shirt like the boys, then it could be a skirt/dress/shorts/dungarees or a very girly summer dress with bows in her pigtails.
This awakening found me secretly browsing the catalogues we had at home (pre-t'internet LOL) and trying to match girls stuff with boys stuff to make outfits that I wanted to try on.
Then by complete fluke I wore I ended up wearing her jeans, t-shirt, sandals (long story for another time) My mam realised the jeans were the best fitting jeans I'd ever worn, so bought me girls jeans from there on.
As I grew up and through my adult years I've just naturally added and mixed more women's wear into my wardrobe.
So am I a crossdresser? Yes, I have thought that and have tried quite a few times to look en-femme, but however hard I try I just see in the mirror a stupid looking bloke in a dress, wig, make up. I come back to the same conclusion - presenting as a woman does nothing for me. Now that said and for transparency, I do crossdress en-femme on the rare occasion when I go to a TV sauna party, which over the years I've been to say 6/7 times. It's fun to get attention from everyone and even more fun now I have (cough) breasts LOL but at the end there is very little desire to do it again.
I have my B-cup breasts and now targeting a more whole body fem shape I still am who I am.