[Marcia]

Hello everyone ...
A shout out to all who have posted such great and inspirational advice and encouragement, what a great site BN!!

All my life, I've been confused by gender roles, never comfortable in my own skin. It is now late in life, so, it's now or never. Unfortunately, a full transition is just not socially or really physically possible. I could never pass or credibly present as transgender. Yet, about a year ago, I stumbled upon BN and was completely gobsmacked by men successfully growing natural breasts. This had never occured to me, and I had always thought that ... male breast = surgery. A light went on in my mind, and I couldn't quit thinking about it, yearning for my own breasts. To this point in life, I have been completely flat chested.

In January, I ordered my first PM. My doses were tentative and only about 500mg per day. Because of my gender angst and probable body dysmorphia I was already taking Red Reishi, and eating any food with psytoestrogen effects. I dislike any body hair and particularly despise my low hanging male fruit. For years I've pursued efforts to hide and diminish them. Still, I have never entertained transitioning, and see myself as both male and female, possibly androgynous.

Around mid-February I modeled a program on Lotus's suggestions. By early April things were tingling and tender, and yes this could be happening. A panicked moment, approaching a point of no return? I took three weeks off, cleared my mind and knew this was for me. Since, late April, thru today I've followed a strict regimen and never missed a dose. (See my post in "Introduce Yourself" -or- view my member profile) for program details.

So, where am I today?  Happy     I have mini breasts and hard fibrous egg sized breast buds ... Oh, Joy!!

Here are some pix of my modest results ... (taken 05/23/2024)

  Marcia

[Owllee]

Thank you for posting your photos! I think it is required to growing breasts. Just kidding but it really helps for people to know what to expect.

Your breast buds looks great! And even! I only had a bud on my right side with PM. 

I dont have much advice since everyone's experience will be different, but resist increasing the dose as long as possible and make sure to eat bananas or something with Potassium to guard against the dreaded night time calf cramps. I stopped taking PM because I had them almost every night and they hurt like mad.  I also gained a huge amount of weight on PM but I was miserable with work and other things so I was over eating to compensate. When I stopped PM I lost almost 100lbs over a year and a half or so which also meant losing any breast development, except the bud. 

Best of luck and rock on!

Owlie

[Marcia]

Hello Owlie and thanks for your kind words. I've read many of your posts and you are so kind and encouraging to members. And your breasts are nice and I aspire and hope to develop as well. 

You say you were kidding, but I agree that posting pix is really a requirement. Walk the talk, and share with others. Still, it's not an easy decision to put yourself out there, obviously with my starting age and physique I'm not model material. I'm doing this for myself, I'll share for others. More pix soon as I will post another months (June) update. I'm terrible at committment to programs/plans but will make best effort on monthly updates.

Thank you so much for the Postassium suggestion, I have experienced the cramps, not fun! Also, have experinced weight re-distribution and have a belly pooch eventhough I'm on the slender side. Just adjusted my doses from 3x per day to 2x, basically 1500mg > 1000mg. Two reasons, the cramps and seeking more of a maintenance dose. The buds are in, and things are progressing FAST. Technically, already reached one of my goals, anyone seeing me naked would probably see breasts. Also, I'm in for the long game, no rush. It's working.

Yes, I'll "rock on!" and thanx for being my first comment on this thread  

  Marcia

[Owllee]

Thank you for your nice comments!

 I seldom post anything on social media or forums of any sort and even avoid email as much as possible.

But Breast Nexus is different. I dont remember if there was a male section when I first discovered Breast Nexus many years ago. I remember women posting about "boobie juice" and many funny comments about attempting to enlarge their breasts and I couldnt ignore it. In those days I remember many posts about PM and noogleberry and I kept wondering if they would work for male bodies.

I have had my version of gender disphoria since birth....at least thats how it feels. I remember being shocked at around 5 years old when my cousins informed me I was never going to be a woman. I was so sure...

Anyway, I dont want to go on about myself since this is your thread but I should admit I also didnt start until I was older...I think I was 62 when I first tried PM. So you arent alone.

I wish you all the best in your journey. I wouldnt trade this experience for anything, even though its made me sick from time and time. I really enjoyed my time with PM and wish I hadnt become curious about HRT but live and learn.

All the best,
Owlie

[Marcia]

Hello
This is my update for the month of June.

My program remains the same, with my reductions to PM of 2x daily @ 500mg and RR 2x daily @ 500mg.
Now that I am convinced this is definitely working, I am seeking lower doses to play the long game ... slow and easy.
The photo results are not dramatic, but the physical sensations are for sure. My buds are constantly sensitive and tender.
I have passed the point of no return, tho rather small, I know these are here for good. This makes me so happy, and I can't keep my hands off them

These pix were taken 06-23-2024.

  Marcia    Happy 4th of July

[Marcia]

Hey Owlie, thanks for following my thread.

Your comments are eerily similar to my experiences and it's comforting to know I'm not the only one.
Likewise for me, BN is really the only social forum I've ever been comfortable to share myself and feelings. Most other social platforms are creepy and invasive. The group of members here are so supportive! I'll never be a "rock star" on this forum, but maybe another voice that resonates with someone new on the same path.

Why I'm on this path, is so hard to convey. Somehow I've always been frustrated by the limitations of gender, and just never felt adequate as a male. For me gender seems so much more fluid, I am both male and female, and that balance is always fluctuating. A shame it does not express in the physical realm, sort of like a chameleon where we could change day to day. I know the term gender-fluid, but society is so binary and unaccepting.

Finally, thank you so much for sharing your age, it gives me hope. Your results are so nice and dramatic. Also, your view on PM versus HRT fit my own. I feel so different on PM, my moods and personality have changed for the better. Despite my femininity urges, I will never transition (and the world will be thankful, as I'd be a frightful sight). Others warn about the "pink fog" and morphing and shifting goals, but I believe PM and Lotus's program will get me where I want to be. Androgyny perhaps?  

  Marcia

[wInzIg316]

Marcia, there’s definitely a ‘there’ with respect to breasts. And such nice large areolas! Are they a result of your regimen or were they always that way?

[Owllee]

Hmm...with your slim figure and burgeoning breasts you will reach androgeny very soon.

I think we often confuse size with attraction, but its really contrast the eye craves.

I also think we confuse the goal with success...when the journey is the most important part.

My personal goal is to be as large as some of my heroes on Breast Nexus...but will it ever happen? Does it matter if the journey finally makes the longing go away? When will I know Im done anyway?

Anyway, anyway, you are already very attractive and I bet the next stage will be astonishing.

Best
Owlie

[Marcia]

Hello Winzig
Thanks for your kind opinion!

NO, nothing about my areolas/chest was "always that way". Long ago I was completely flat chested. My areolas are now 1.5 inches/3mm(temperature dependent), and the left has changed more than the right. My regimen is modeled after Lotus's X program, and after my buds came in, and there was no doubt, I began with PC on breasts every other day. Some say that makes them widen. I hope it continues.

Thanks to you for your Gender Dysphoria thread. It's one of the first things I read here on BN and it describes my thoughs to a "T" (especially the last paragraph of intro). You are lucky to come by your breasts naturally, but while I've not had classic Gynecomastia, I can emphasize with the struggle of acceptance. I too am relishing my breasts. Yours are so lovely and I can only hope and aspire to develop to the same level.

  Marcia

[Marcia]

Good Morning Owlie

Again, thanks for your kind words
  .... blushing!  On my journey to androgeny ... how nice. 
 
I also see you fulfilling your dream, you are already impressive and through the threads have gained the respect and admiration of many of your heroes.

Enjoying the journey ...

  Marcia