4 hours ago
I am seeking some SAGE and WISE advice from all of you remarkable humans, in how to effectively grow my breasts. I have been perusing this site for several years. I have read and read and read until I think my brain will burstI I have read with much excitement and envy àbout so many of your successes. I desperately want to acheive a great level of success. I have only lightly dabbled in NBE (used Fenugreek and saw palmetto with very, very little progress.......and then some PM from Ainterol, both capsules and cream). With the PM, I thought there might be some positive results, especially in how they felt. I have some PM capsules and cream on the way in a couple of weeks. Until then I will take 3x610mg Fenugreek twice a day and 2x40mg of Black Cohosh twice a day (is this good dosage)?
If there is one, I need a recommended program (Lotus, you look to be the go to girl for this) to accomplish the following if possible. (I do understand it takes time so I will temper my expectations). I would like to have an NBE program that will accomplish 3 major things:
Breast growth/feminization
Little to no weight gain.......lose weight would be AWESOME (currently 5'9". 195 lbs)
Maintain libido
These 3 components are so very important because of the nuclear bomb I dropped in January.
And what was the nuclear bomb back in January. I am 59, married for 28 years (blissfully), all my kids are grown and out of the house. What I am about to say is highly irrational........I have known since I was a kid that I had overly strong desires towards feminine things. Being a child of the 70s and 80s.....well, let's just say, you keep that stuff to yourself or risk all kinds of scrutiny and even harm. So, I blocked it, locked it away. Became the most Alpha male I could be, or so I thought. Sports, military. But it was always there. I would secretly dress in female clothes (for many years). It always made me feel a certain way, feminine, complete and even pretty. I have read from others that it was arousing to them, but not for me. What it did was excite me as if I just unwrapped my favorite Christmas present. I fought this for decades and this past January I dropped a nuclear bomb.......I came out to my wife. Told her I wanted to transition....that I needed to transition. Well, needless to say it was way more than a shock. She said that no matter how much she loves me, or how many years we have together, she could not in essence live her life essentially as a lesbian. She said NO. If I did she couod not stay with me. My heart broke, my dream shattered. I decided at that moment that I loved her more than my desire to transition. So, I buried it again but it's not staying buried. My desire is back with a wicked vengeance. I wish I knew how to handle this.
Have any of you had a situation like this......a woman you love with every fiber of your being and a desire to transition that is so strong you can barely think of anything else. I CAN NOT live without my wife, yet I know the wicked battle I face fighting my need to transition. ANY AND ALL ADVICE WILL BE GREATLY APPRECIATED.
If there is one, I need a recommended program (Lotus, you look to be the go to girl for this) to accomplish the following if possible. (I do understand it takes time so I will temper my expectations). I would like to have an NBE program that will accomplish 3 major things:
Breast growth/feminization
Little to no weight gain.......lose weight would be AWESOME (currently 5'9". 195 lbs)
Maintain libido
These 3 components are so very important because of the nuclear bomb I dropped in January.
And what was the nuclear bomb back in January. I am 59, married for 28 years (blissfully), all my kids are grown and out of the house. What I am about to say is highly irrational........I have known since I was a kid that I had overly strong desires towards feminine things. Being a child of the 70s and 80s.....well, let's just say, you keep that stuff to yourself or risk all kinds of scrutiny and even harm. So, I blocked it, locked it away. Became the most Alpha male I could be, or so I thought. Sports, military. But it was always there. I would secretly dress in female clothes (for many years). It always made me feel a certain way, feminine, complete and even pretty. I have read from others that it was arousing to them, but not for me. What it did was excite me as if I just unwrapped my favorite Christmas present. I fought this for decades and this past January I dropped a nuclear bomb.......I came out to my wife. Told her I wanted to transition....that I needed to transition. Well, needless to say it was way more than a shock. She said that no matter how much she loves me, or how many years we have together, she could not in essence live her life essentially as a lesbian. She said NO. If I did she couod not stay with me. My heart broke, my dream shattered. I decided at that moment that I loved her more than my desire to transition. So, I buried it again but it's not staying buried. My desire is back with a wicked vengeance. I wish I knew how to handle this.
Have any of you had a situation like this......a woman you love with every fiber of your being and a desire to transition that is so strong you can barely think of anything else. I CAN NOT live without my wife, yet I know the wicked battle I face fighting my need to transition. ANY AND ALL ADVICE WILL BE GREATLY APPRECIATED.
