[giggygig]

Thanks for sharing, it gives us an insight and also allows us to emphasise with out own blurtings to the doctor. LOL
even though Gender issues is so stressful. I just have to step outside myself and chuckle at the comedy of me telling the doctor (who I had never seen before) I think I have breasts.

If I am reading the mood of your posts correctly? you seem surprised that you have moved another step over the fence?

[Wuerstchen]

The way you are going IaBoy, you may want to dissociate yourself from your "Males staying male" forum! Are you discovering your true identity, or is it the PM and the other stuff altering your brain?

[The First Aria]

Not really sure if I moved from atop the fence, maybe it's more the fact that I am a lot more accepting of my plight or gift?? And willing to be more upfront about it??

I hope that makes sense, it's the only way I can verbalize how I feel and think. Sorry if that mucks it up, but that is the best example I can give right now.

The funny thing is. Now that my wife has known for quite a while 15- 20 yrs about my "Hobby", and now another very important person in my life knows (aka Doctor ), I now have a concern that I will have to express and push for her understanding on me playing around with Estrogenic Herbs and such. I am, in a way, hoping that she Rx's the needed drugs to help me feminize.

But, I want to state forcibly, that I do NOT want to turn in my "Man Club Card". After 60 yrs, or at least 30yrs of being a man I would never do that to my wife, kids or Grand Kids. I really don't feel the need to do that kind of upheaval.

Rather I want to be a chameleon.. Change color's , sort of speaking, when I feel like I need or want to and have the comfort in knowing I am not just making a mockery of the female body. I have too much respect to do that.

Screwed up thought process, eh??? LOL... Well, that's me!

[The First Aria]

The way you are going IaBoy, you may want to dissociate yourself from your "Males staying male" forum! Are you discovering your true identity, or is it the PM and the other stuff altering your brain?

Sorry I didn't get my previous post in any quicker. Maybe it would of explained a few things. But here is another thought.

I have been impotent for like 12 yrs due to my blood circulation problems... Oh ya, a urologist offered a penile implant and I settled for a penile pump, but after using it for a year I felt it was just a lie. And I think my wife felt I was just killing myself mentally using it, cause shortly after we quit being intimate.

So, cause I am impotent, and don't have sex with my wife, does THAT mean I am no longer a man??? I mean, forget about my Cross Dressing. I suppose in many circles I would of had to turn in my "Man Card" but in other cultures they might of considered me a Priest or a Holy Man. But, I am neither... ??? You make a judgment, for I cant.

And as far as My Forum, I pushed for it for those of us who, as of right now, would not like to fully convert. And even the ones that have still have insight and are welcome. It was not just for me, or my own edification or ego.

[tanysquirrel]

So, cause I am impotent, and don't have sex with my wife, does THAT mean I am no longer a man??? I mean, forget about my Cross Dressing. I suppose in many circles I would of had to turn in my "Man Card" but in other cultures they might of considered me a Priest or a Holy Man. But, I am neither... ??? You make a judgment, for I cant.

no. there are plenty of genetic males who cannot maintain an erection, but it makes them no less manly. in my opinion, it would be the need for breasts/feminization etc, that would denote that one wishes not to be manly. just my opinion, others may differ.

[Lotus]

The way you are going IaBoy, you may want to dissociate yourself from your "Males staying male" forum! Are you discovering your true identity, or is it the PM and the other stuff altering your brain?

Nonsense. Wuerstchen, if we used this trans misogynistic ideology you'd be dissociated from all breast nexus with the exception to the nipple fetish thread.

[Wuerstchen]

Not really sure if I moved from atop the fence, maybe it's more the fact that I am a lot more accepting of my plight or gift?? And willing to be more upfront about it??

I hope that makes sense, it's the only way I can verbalize how I feel and think. Sorry if that mucks it up, but that is the best example I can give right now.

The funny thing is. Now that my wife has known for quite a while 15- 20 yrs about my "Hobby", and now another very important person in my life knows (aka Doctor ), I now have a concern that I will have to express and push for her understanding on me playing around with Estrogenic Herbs and such. I am, in a way, hoping that she Rx's the needed drugs to help me feminize.

But, I want to state forcibly, that I do NOT want to turn in my "Man Club Card". After 60 yrs, or at least 30yrs of being a man I would never do that to my wife, kids or Grand Kids. I really don't feel the need to do that kind of upheaval.

Rather I want to be a chameleon.. Change color's , sort of speaking, when I feel like I need or want to and have the comfort in knowing I am not just making a mockery of the female body. I have too much respect to do that.

Screwed up thought process, eh??? LOL... Well, that's me!

Thoughtful and well-stated IaBoy! You seem eminently sane!

[Wuerstchen]

So, cause I am impotent, and don't have sex with my wife, does THAT mean I am no longer a man??? I mean, forget about my Cross Dressing. I suppose in many circles I would of had to turn in my "Man Card" but in other cultures they might of considered me a Priest or a Holy Man. But, I am neither... ??? You make a judgment, for I cant.

no. there are plenty of genetic males who cannot maintain an erection, but it makes them no less manly. in my opinion, it would be the need for breasts/feminization etc, that would denote that one wishes not to be manly. just my opinion, others may differ.

I married my second and present wife twenty years ago when I already had ED. Viagra did the trick, but after menopause, she found penetration painful, so our sex life has consisted entirely of mutual breast and nipple play and fantastic oral sex, and it has been FABULOUS! So penetrative genital sex is not the be-all and end-all of intimacy.

[The First Aria]

My Dad used to joke, when he was still amongst us, it went something like this.... " I may be too old, to cut the mustard, but at least I can like the lid!" I thought it was crude, but I suppose if you still like the mustard, eh?

[The First Aria]

Thoughtful and well-stated IaBoy! You seem eminently sane!

Thanks brother.