Hi Melodysims,
Your first sentence perfectly captures how I feel. As I am self employed, I can, in some ways, please myself. I do, though, worry about the effect on customers. That said, a leading North Wales hotelier, is a well known transexual and has been the subject of 3 BBC Wales documentary series.
As to your proposed regime, I think you are on the right lines but I would advise sticking to the high dose, until you are aware of changes and reduce gradualy. You do not want to stall developement, as it can take huge doses to get it going again. Your initial aim is for erect nipples, with a knot behind them and general tenderness, once you are there you can reduce the dose. I would suggest adding wild yam, either in caps, or as a massage cream, to maximise the effects of the PM.
An employee, clocked that something was up, after about 7 months, so you may not have long to go before having to broach this with those close to to you.
The only family member I have to worry about is my son and, as I only see him infrequently, I have decided to wait until I next see him, or am about to come out. All those, who work with me, except one, know and I suspect he knows something is going on.